everyday..naked
Every day lasts forever..I don't know how long I can keep up the lies..I feel my mask of security slipping away and more and more people seeing me..without a mask..barren..naked and vulnberable. I actually pulled out the fake courage to go to Jessica's pool party yesterday..people asked...I lied..people asked..I lied...finally i wandered out to the boat and tried to be alone..and cried and cried..people came over and asked what was wrong..I can't trust any of them except maybe sean..but it so hard to talk to him alone and I can't even guarantee that he'll understand..they may be some like me ..alll around..but they're better liers...