Life at Angell Job Corps
Things are going mostly okay. I have come to realize that I can't hold attatchments to many people here. I realized that because so many people have left in the last 2 weeks and I know I will never talk to the majority of them again. Lydia(my roommate), CC, Robert, Luis, Angela, Sara, Emilie, Jeff, Nate, and Josh are all the people who have left or are probably leaving this month so far and last month the fact of Jessica leaving was enough. Another confusing thing is that I don't know who to really trust here. I have 2 people who are my best friends here at Job Corps(Sara you are still my numero uno best friend and band mate :)) but sometimes I worry that I annoy the crap out of them and that they are their own best friends and not mine. I have thought about living with them after Job Corps. Me and Kasia both want to go to University of oregon to study Journalism so it would be really nice to live off campus with her. I just want to get my brain all worked out with this whole thing. I worry too much what people think about me, I try not to but I do. I don't let it bother me but I always think about it even if I don't care. I feel that if I ask them then they will just get even more annoyed at me.
And then There is the whole situation with smoking. I am still struggling with it. The doctor here is helping me as well as my counselor. But I have to move to a smoking room. What the trouble is, I have to have a bottom bunk and there are none open which means that someone has to move. For a while now, my frind Amy has been complaining about being the only Christian in a room full of wiccans. Then last night when she got told that she might have the chance to move out and me move in she tells me, "it's not that bad" I was so upset. I had to live with a wiccan for 17 years ofmy life, I don't need to do it again. I'm struggling enough in my faith as it is right now.
Some good news to add to all of this. I am becoming more active in the church here. I will be participating in a 30-hour famine as well as their youthgroup, and I am planning on going to their womens retreat as well. Wish me luck on finding loopholes in the rules
And then There is the whole situation with smoking. I am still struggling with it. The doctor here is helping me as well as my counselor. But I have to move to a smoking room. What the trouble is, I have to have a bottom bunk and there are none open which means that someone has to move. For a while now, my frind Amy has been complaining about being the only Christian in a room full of wiccans. Then last night when she got told that she might have the chance to move out and me move in she tells me, "it's not that bad" I was so upset. I had to live with a wiccan for 17 years ofmy life, I don't need to do it again. I'm struggling enough in my faith as it is right now.
Some good news to add to all of this. I am becoming more active in the church here. I will be participating in a 30-hour famine as well as their youthgroup, and I am planning on going to their womens retreat as well. Wish me luck on finding loopholes in the rules