i have no idea what to do now
so i've been really thinking about my life and what i want to do with it. i feel so empty and scared because there are so many possible things i could do with my life after i get out of high school. i really want to be with jason. we were discussing maybe getting engaged after i get out of high school and waiting for awhile before we thought about getting married. i just want to be with him and know that he wants to be wiht me. i think that this is the first time i ever thought about being with someone for along time and not being totally freaked out of my mind. i want to be with him foreever and no, this isn't some stupid child fling its serious and wonderful. people can judge it all they want but i an't back down on what i want. who know's i'm ready for the future whatever it may bring.