Friends...?
I find that I have fewer and fewer true friends. Most of them do not live near my locale. I find myself distancing from the group that I lately held in high esteem. They no longer seem worthy of my regard. Not all of them of course. I now remember why I didn't keep in touch with them in my year absent from Columbus. I formerly thought myself a good judge of character. I have given people all the excuses that I could. I no longer feel it necessary to explain away their wrongs. That sounds awfully righteous of me but oh well. Get the fuck over it.
I do not wish to make enemies but I'm not going to bother with people I know I can't trust. I'm especially glad I am moving. I miss living with people. I like being in my own place but I'm too ADD to sit alone every day. I am more glad then ever for my true friends. The unshakable support that I receive from them. I needed to come home to get perspective. I now have that. No more drama for me. I'm just going to walk away. I was going to make a scene in my exit from the drama scene but what is the damn point. No matter what I do they will talk behind my back. You know what... Who the hell cares it is not like I will be any different the other 200 people they do it too. In fact, I'm going to take the time to apologize to anyone I have ever spoken about behind their back. I'm sorry I got sucked in to the drama black hole. Not that that excuses my behavior. To those who know that I hold them dear to my heart, remember I will break my back to help you. Anything that I can do even if it is just an ear at the end of the line...I'm here. I feel that I am distilling my friendships to 190 proof. Ah, Everclear, the drunkenness of a good support system and a great bunch of people, I toast to all of you.
I do not wish to make enemies but I'm not going to bother with people I know I can't trust. I'm especially glad I am moving. I miss living with people. I like being in my own place but I'm too ADD to sit alone every day. I am more glad then ever for my true friends. The unshakable support that I receive from them. I needed to come home to get perspective. I now have that. No more drama for me. I'm just going to walk away. I was going to make a scene in my exit from the drama scene but what is the damn point. No matter what I do they will talk behind my back. You know what... Who the hell cares it is not like I will be any different the other 200 people they do it too. In fact, I'm going to take the time to apologize to anyone I have ever spoken about behind their back. I'm sorry I got sucked in to the drama black hole. Not that that excuses my behavior. To those who know that I hold them dear to my heart, remember I will break my back to help you. Anything that I can do even if it is just an ear at the end of the line...I'm here. I feel that I am distilling my friendships to 190 proof. Ah, Everclear, the drunkenness of a good support system and a great bunch of people, I toast to all of you.