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I'm feeling okay today, it was a kind of awkward morning though. People at the couch talking about all of the constant drama going on between many couch members (whom will go unnamed), wears on you a little. I did the theory homework that I had to make-up because of my car running out of gas on Monday. It took me almost two hours to do it and that sucked. I'm hoping Jessie will be in a good mood today, I hope she's feeling better as well. I really wish I knew what was happening between us because the situation is almost completely in her hands (she's the one that did the breaking after all), and I feel like I'm just in the dark about how she's doing. I ask her how things are and I can't get it out of her. It feels like she's holding something back from me and I wish i knew what it was. If I could just have a clue, a single clue, I might feel better about things, but I don't. It leaves me feeling somewhat hopeless, but I guess that's just my pessimistic side talking. My gut is still saying that when we get back together *crosses fingers*, things will be better than either of us could have ever hoped it would be. On the other hand, Jessie was talking to Elise the other day and giving Elise a confidence boost, and the way she was talking to Elise just left me saying "Wow, that was cool, it seems like that self-confident side that you always wanted to show is starting to do just that, you rock!" It just made me realize that much more that I love her. She's changing into the Jessie that I started dating, only more independent, more confindent, only better. It makes me really happy to see that Jessie is getting better, not just on an physical level, but on a mental/emotional level as well.
As you can see, Jessie is still a major part of my life. I hope she always will be. :)
Big props to Little Dave, for getting to "see the rulebook" today. Don't worry, you'll have enough points eventually to get some real play. No drugs or alcohol involved either. :)
I'm gonna go back to the couch now that I'm feeling better and see if I can beg somebody for some foodage. Later.
As you can see, Jessie is still a major part of my life. I hope she always will be. :)
Big props to Little Dave, for getting to "see the rulebook" today. Don't worry, you'll have enough points eventually to get some real play. No drugs or alcohol involved either. :)
I'm gonna go back to the couch now that I'm feeling better and see if I can beg somebody for some foodage. Later.