I suppose this is what it all comes down to.
I really don't know how to start this post, other than by saying all of you have been such wonderful friends to me these past couple years since I've been back. Some of you I've known since I returned, some of you I've only just met, and some of you I've known for a good portion of my entire life. But, despite anything like that, regardless of the amount of time we've all known one another, you've all grown to be very special people to me.
However, I'm writing this post to let you all know that this will be the last entry from me for a while. How long exactly, I'm not quite sure yet. All I know is that there's been a lot going on for me as of late, much of which I haven't told anyone about, because I didn't want to worry any of you. I've just been going too hard, too much, too long, and I realized I was beginning to lose touch with exactly why it was that I came back here in the first place. I came back for my family, for my mum and my son, and for my closest friends, Pete, and Roger, who I missed terribly, and to find Moonie, who I've managed to find once more. Despite all that, there's been so much happening lately, that I haven't been spending nearly as much time with them as I should be, and that needs to change. They're the reason I came back at all - I couldn't bear leaving them.
So, what it comes down to, is I'll be spending my time with my family and closest friends. Beyond that, I have a lot thinking to do about things I've put off for far too long, and I have questions for which I desperately need to find answers. I don't know how long I'm permitted to be back, but I do know what I need to do with my time that's left.
None of you have done anything wrong, I promise you of that. You're all very special to me, in that you're the fans that I came to love as friends, and that's something that will never change. There's a chance that I may be back in the future. After all, even death couldn't keep me away the first time *grins* So, please, try not to worry.
In closing, you all know I always hated listening to myself sing *chuckles* But, I do want to leave you with some of my lyrics I wrote while with the JEB. All I ask is that each and every one of you take them to heart.
Get your head out of the sand take your life in both your hands
And live your dreams
The rainbow in your tears points the way through all your years
Of sleepless nights
The sun still shines above the clouds and as long as you know how
You'll see the light
Don't listen to the ocean in a seashell
The waves inside are not what they appear
Seize the day, seize the night, face the fear
Cause everyday reality gets stronger
Don't turn your back it won't disappear
Seize the day, seize the night, face the fear
Go out then, seize the day. Seize the day, believe in yourselves and what you're worth and what you can do, and all the love and the riches in the world will be yours. *smiles*
Until then.
However, I'm writing this post to let you all know that this will be the last entry from me for a while. How long exactly, I'm not quite sure yet. All I know is that there's been a lot going on for me as of late, much of which I haven't told anyone about, because I didn't want to worry any of you. I've just been going too hard, too much, too long, and I realized I was beginning to lose touch with exactly why it was that I came back here in the first place. I came back for my family, for my mum and my son, and for my closest friends, Pete, and Roger, who I missed terribly, and to find Moonie, who I've managed to find once more. Despite all that, there's been so much happening lately, that I haven't been spending nearly as much time with them as I should be, and that needs to change. They're the reason I came back at all - I couldn't bear leaving them.
So, what it comes down to, is I'll be spending my time with my family and closest friends. Beyond that, I have a lot thinking to do about things I've put off for far too long, and I have questions for which I desperately need to find answers. I don't know how long I'm permitted to be back, but I do know what I need to do with my time that's left.
None of you have done anything wrong, I promise you of that. You're all very special to me, in that you're the fans that I came to love as friends, and that's something that will never change. There's a chance that I may be back in the future. After all, even death couldn't keep me away the first time *grins* So, please, try not to worry.
In closing, you all know I always hated listening to myself sing *chuckles* But, I do want to leave you with some of my lyrics I wrote while with the JEB. All I ask is that each and every one of you take them to heart.
Get your head out of the sand take your life in both your hands
And live your dreams
The rainbow in your tears points the way through all your years
Of sleepless nights
The sun still shines above the clouds and as long as you know how
You'll see the light
Don't listen to the ocean in a seashell
The waves inside are not what they appear
Seize the day, seize the night, face the fear
Cause everyday reality gets stronger
Don't turn your back it won't disappear
Seize the day, seize the night, face the fear
Go out then, seize the day. Seize the day, believe in yourselves and what you're worth and what you can do, and all the love and the riches in the world will be yours. *smiles*
Until then.