I stopped...
So...as odd as it sounds. I had quite the weird moment today.
I'm a generally happy person. I'm okay with where I am in life right now, not completely happy, but okay. I have a few goals, but I'm not really concerned with the future. When it happens, it happens.
But today, amidst some really shitty stuff that's been going down.
I think I cracked a little bit.
I was riding in the backseat of our van, the one I always sit in when I'm not driving. I was staring out the window and listening to my MP3 player. "Fallen Angel" by Poison came on. And I got to thinking.
I'm a fairly good driver now. I'm not perfect, and I don't have my license, I also cannot drive in reverse to save my life. But, I thought, what in the world was stopping me from getting the keys in the middle of the night, packing up everything that I could into my suitcase and a duffle bag, and leaving? Basically nothing.
And not just leaving, but stopping at the bank, withdrawing all of my earned money, and going to the airport. I'd hop a flight to LA and that'd be it. I'd be on my way. I wouldn't have to worry about going in reverse...
I'd only have to drive forward.
I'd make sure to call my parents in the morning and tell them everything (in my mind they'd somehow been okay with it...), but I really honestly thought about it. I'd get there, and try to find a job right off the bat. I'd start a new life as someone else.
At the time I honestly thought it was the EASIEST thing in the world for me to do.
I was completely, 100% serious.
And now, as I look back on it. I'm still about 30% sure...though I'm looking at things much more realistically now.
Anyway, a few hours have passed. I had put it in the back of my mind, not really thinking about it.
Until I checked postsecret today and internet destiny struck.
I saw this...
I only wonder what skyline that is.
But yes, besides that odd little happening. That's all I have to say...
I'm a generally happy person. I'm okay with where I am in life right now, not completely happy, but okay. I have a few goals, but I'm not really concerned with the future. When it happens, it happens.
But today, amidst some really shitty stuff that's been going down.
I think I cracked a little bit.
I was riding in the backseat of our van, the one I always sit in when I'm not driving. I was staring out the window and listening to my MP3 player. "Fallen Angel" by Poison came on. And I got to thinking.
I'm a fairly good driver now. I'm not perfect, and I don't have my license, I also cannot drive in reverse to save my life. But, I thought, what in the world was stopping me from getting the keys in the middle of the night, packing up everything that I could into my suitcase and a duffle bag, and leaving? Basically nothing.
And not just leaving, but stopping at the bank, withdrawing all of my earned money, and going to the airport. I'd hop a flight to LA and that'd be it. I'd be on my way. I wouldn't have to worry about going in reverse...
I'd only have to drive forward.
I'd make sure to call my parents in the morning and tell them everything (in my mind they'd somehow been okay with it...), but I really honestly thought about it. I'd get there, and try to find a job right off the bat. I'd start a new life as someone else.
At the time I honestly thought it was the EASIEST thing in the world for me to do.
I was completely, 100% serious.
And now, as I look back on it. I'm still about 30% sure...though I'm looking at things much more realistically now.
Anyway, a few hours have passed. I had put it in the back of my mind, not really thinking about it.
Until I checked postsecret today and internet destiny struck.
I saw this...
I only wonder what skyline that is.
But yes, besides that odd little happening. That's all I have to say...