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So today kinda sucked (despite the effort of some of my friends and some random but well placed hugs) because I feel miserable for breaking up with becky right now. I hate the fact that I got into something that I wasn't ready for and it ended up hurting one of my most amazing friends. I'm going to end up hating myself for a while. Unfortunatly it had to be done because right now I just can't handle a girlfriend right now and it just wouldn't be fair...somehow no matter how many times i think that i still feel like crap. But the truth is that I'm not over everything that has happened. It's bad enough that seeing one picture can make me miserable for the day >.<.
And also Rob and Sarah broke up and I feel horrible for Rob because I just am recovering from a breakup exactly like his. But now I find out that one of my friends that claimed to love him is taking joy in the fact that he's miserable, which is pissing me off to no end. She does have a right to not exactly be a fan of them, but I can't even comprehend how much she changed that she would actually be happy from knowing someone is miserable. I don't think I can even talk to my friend at the moment, speaking Rob is the one of my few friends that has tried to help me through everything the past 2 months with my parents and Katharine and everything else.
I just want this year to be over so I don't have to watch my friends change like this. This way I can just not deal with people for the entire summer.
And also Rob and Sarah broke up and I feel horrible for Rob because I just am recovering from a breakup exactly like his. But now I find out that one of my friends that claimed to love him is taking joy in the fact that he's miserable, which is pissing me off to no end. She does have a right to not exactly be a fan of them, but I can't even comprehend how much she changed that she would actually be happy from knowing someone is miserable. I don't think I can even talk to my friend at the moment, speaking Rob is the one of my few friends that has tried to help me through everything the past 2 months with my parents and Katharine and everything else.
I just want this year to be over so I don't have to watch my friends change like this. This way I can just not deal with people for the entire summer.