Piss and moan.
I'm finding it rather irksome how things get started, but they never really get finished. I take the blame for some of this, but I'm not the only one. I also like how the roofers are now on week three of working on this damn project. I am rather tired of listening to them pound uselessly for hours on end. Yesterday we got to listen to their radio all day...
All that I want right now is a nice, hot shower. Of course, before I get to take one, I must drain the tub of its bleach water, rinse the shower curtains, and rehang them. I didn't begin the shower curtain cleaning project, but of course, I will have to finish it...especially if I want to shower sometime in the next few weeks.
I'm not quite sure I know what to do with myself anymore. I have quite thoroughly fucked up this semester, thanks kindly to me stressing about everything. My shit is just not together, and I seem to be completely incapable of getting it together. I'm not sure what I want to do. I just want to get through school, but at the same time, I really feel like I need a few years break. I feel as though I am currently just wasting my time and money, but I also feel pressured to suck it up and continue. Do I push my miserable self through another few years of school, floundering about like a fish out of water, gasping for air? Do I stop going for a while, and find a full time job here? Do I stop going, move back down to Menominee, and find a full time job there? Or go to Menominee, work full time, and perhaps go part time at the community college? Or do I say fuck it all and move to somewhere completely new, (preferably snow-less) and either work full time there, go to school there (eventually), or just come back when I feel my batteries are recharged?
Oi, I'm stagnant.
Also? Fuck having a landline. This goddamn phone has not stopped ringing since we hooked it up. Cam gave the number to all of three people, and it has rarely been one of these people. I have my cell phone, so I have given the number to absolutely no one. PISS OFF TELEMARKETERS. Honestly >.< Three times now since I began this entry. STOP IT!!
I feel so gross. Inside and out. Big changes need to happen, but I'm not sure what those changes are, or when they need to happen, or how to go about accomplishing them, or really what they need to be. I have small ideas, but most of them I either don't feel are right, or I'm in no way, shape, or form ready for them. I've been depressed and stressed for way, way to long. I'm tired, and I'm beaten. I wish to be carefree and happy again.
>.< Four times! STOP RINGING!!!! *chucks the phone out the window and hits an idiotic roofer*
Frustration. I'm tired of you.
I guess I'll go take care of the goddamn shower now...
All that I want right now is a nice, hot shower. Of course, before I get to take one, I must drain the tub of its bleach water, rinse the shower curtains, and rehang them. I didn't begin the shower curtain cleaning project, but of course, I will have to finish it...especially if I want to shower sometime in the next few weeks.
I'm not quite sure I know what to do with myself anymore. I have quite thoroughly fucked up this semester, thanks kindly to me stressing about everything. My shit is just not together, and I seem to be completely incapable of getting it together. I'm not sure what I want to do. I just want to get through school, but at the same time, I really feel like I need a few years break. I feel as though I am currently just wasting my time and money, but I also feel pressured to suck it up and continue. Do I push my miserable self through another few years of school, floundering about like a fish out of water, gasping for air? Do I stop going for a while, and find a full time job here? Do I stop going, move back down to Menominee, and find a full time job there? Or go to Menominee, work full time, and perhaps go part time at the community college? Or do I say fuck it all and move to somewhere completely new, (preferably snow-less) and either work full time there, go to school there (eventually), or just come back when I feel my batteries are recharged?
Oi, I'm stagnant.
Also? Fuck having a landline. This goddamn phone has not stopped ringing since we hooked it up. Cam gave the number to all of three people, and it has rarely been one of these people. I have my cell phone, so I have given the number to absolutely no one. PISS OFF TELEMARKETERS. Honestly >.< Three times now since I began this entry. STOP IT!!
I feel so gross. Inside and out. Big changes need to happen, but I'm not sure what those changes are, or when they need to happen, or how to go about accomplishing them, or really what they need to be. I have small ideas, but most of them I either don't feel are right, or I'm in no way, shape, or form ready for them. I've been depressed and stressed for way, way to long. I'm tired, and I'm beaten. I wish to be carefree and happy again.
>.< Four times! STOP RINGING!!!! *chucks the phone out the window and hits an idiotic roofer*
Frustration. I'm tired of you.
I guess I'll go take care of the goddamn shower now...