What I Feel
No one dares to begin to dream what i dream of
I cannot be warped into anothers mode of thought
I notice everything others do not
I see through your eyes and i know who you are, even if you do not
I see your future, whether it be dismal or glorious, but i will never tell you what it is
People like me do not become kings, leaders, tyrants or figure heads, but people like me DO create those in power
I am like no other, in mind or in soul
I do not believe in the heart, only in the mind and soul
I see beauty where others do not
I am nothing more then a boy in body and never will be ne more then that, but my thoughts and my emotions are ethereal and can never be reached
As soon as you think my mind in void of all though, that is when i am truly contemplating
I am a soldier of retribution
I see lacerations in clouds and i see demons walking the earth, but ill never tell you who they are
I can tell you someones character by their walk, how they speak, how they move and i can tell oyu who they are deep inside.
I yearn for transcendence but i know i will never find it... for if i did, i would never be able to feel what needs to be felt... and i am one of the few people left on the face of the earth with the courage to feel those emotions and see those visions.
I know for a fact that someday i will meet my dream girl and she will be beautiful... in scent, sight, sound, touch, and taste... but out of nothing more then cowardice i will let her slip through my fingers like granules of sand, and i will know when that moment has passed. i will weep and i will deny that ever met her, but in my spirit i will know the time has passed, and my chance gone forever.
I know there is not thin line between love and hate, nor is there a blurred one... there is a space of nothingness between love and hate, and that nothingness is a feeling all in itself... and i have felt it many times, for many reasons.
The only reason I am alive is out of selflessness. many think im selfish and hateful... an asshole even... but its those people ive influenced the most. everyone ive influenced has the oppritunity to be a great person. if i picture a round table with eveyrone ive every known sitting around it, i see myself making an offering to the rest of the table... it is not a wrapped up box with a ribbon or a bow, and it is not a dish... but it is a feeling... a new emotion that is the opposite of nothingness. what i also see happening at this table is everyone accepting and applying the gift to them selves... everyone but me.
There is no day, and there is no night, there is no AM and there is no PM, there is not early, and no late, no morning, afternoon, or evening. there are no digits, no clocks, and no watches... there is only time untouched.
I know what i want and i say what i want and more often then not nobody cares.
most of all: I attract people of evil origin and enemies... and i dont think i will ever know why. but i will always cry about it.
This entry is not about an ego... or a need to declare my place... nor was it about making myself out to be better then everyone else... its just an excercise for me to type out some of the things i feel at times... and see what they look like put somewhere else then my head. and ill be making more these... just to see hwat some of it looks like, and to determine if its true...
I cannot be warped into anothers mode of thought
I notice everything others do not
I see through your eyes and i know who you are, even if you do not
I see your future, whether it be dismal or glorious, but i will never tell you what it is
People like me do not become kings, leaders, tyrants or figure heads, but people like me DO create those in power
I am like no other, in mind or in soul
I do not believe in the heart, only in the mind and soul
I see beauty where others do not
I am nothing more then a boy in body and never will be ne more then that, but my thoughts and my emotions are ethereal and can never be reached
As soon as you think my mind in void of all though, that is when i am truly contemplating
I am a soldier of retribution
I see lacerations in clouds and i see demons walking the earth, but ill never tell you who they are
I can tell you someones character by their walk, how they speak, how they move and i can tell oyu who they are deep inside.
I yearn for transcendence but i know i will never find it... for if i did, i would never be able to feel what needs to be felt... and i am one of the few people left on the face of the earth with the courage to feel those emotions and see those visions.
I know for a fact that someday i will meet my dream girl and she will be beautiful... in scent, sight, sound, touch, and taste... but out of nothing more then cowardice i will let her slip through my fingers like granules of sand, and i will know when that moment has passed. i will weep and i will deny that ever met her, but in my spirit i will know the time has passed, and my chance gone forever.
I know there is not thin line between love and hate, nor is there a blurred one... there is a space of nothingness between love and hate, and that nothingness is a feeling all in itself... and i have felt it many times, for many reasons.
The only reason I am alive is out of selflessness. many think im selfish and hateful... an asshole even... but its those people ive influenced the most. everyone ive influenced has the oppritunity to be a great person. if i picture a round table with eveyrone ive every known sitting around it, i see myself making an offering to the rest of the table... it is not a wrapped up box with a ribbon or a bow, and it is not a dish... but it is a feeling... a new emotion that is the opposite of nothingness. what i also see happening at this table is everyone accepting and applying the gift to them selves... everyone but me.
There is no day, and there is no night, there is no AM and there is no PM, there is not early, and no late, no morning, afternoon, or evening. there are no digits, no clocks, and no watches... there is only time untouched.
I know what i want and i say what i want and more often then not nobody cares.
most of all: I attract people of evil origin and enemies... and i dont think i will ever know why. but i will always cry about it.
This entry is not about an ego... or a need to declare my place... nor was it about making myself out to be better then everyone else... its just an excercise for me to type out some of the things i feel at times... and see what they look like put somewhere else then my head. and ill be making more these... just to see hwat some of it looks like, and to determine if its true...