Super Uber Long Life Update
This is very strange. For some reason, it won't let me access my own journal. I don't know what's going on.
Anyway, I woke up this morning with a screaming sore throat and when it didn't go away after my shower, I told my mom and she wouldn't let me go to school. The symptoms just got worse as the day went on so I'm really glad I stayed home. The good news is now I might actually have time to sit down and tell you all what's been going on in my life. So here goes.
Ok, I'm going to jump around a little here, but I'll try not to be too confusing. Let's go back to Spring play auditions. When I found out the show was going to be Picasso at the Lapin Agile, I got really excited because I have that play and I've read it and I looooooove it. I was really nervous for my audition because I'd never read for Burghardt before and there were so few parts etc, etc. As I walked to school the day of the audition, I just told my self "Relax Blair, it's not a cold read because you know the play. So what if there aren't that many girl parts. All you have to do is read better than all the other girls. Just be better." Yeah, easier said than done, but I like a reach for the stars nearly impossible mantra when I'm trying to do something. Dan Wood saved my life by asking me to audition with him. It was so much fun reading, and looking around at everyone else rehearsing their lines, I felt pretty confident. When I got into the audition, it was honestly fun. One of the most fun auditions I'd ever had. So I felt good because even if I didn't get a part, I knew I'd had an awesome audition.
Well, I got a part. Female Admirer. Very small role, but hey, Mr. B could have chosen anyone to do it, and he chose me. *grins and sparkles*
The show went up last weekend and I'm so glad I did it. It was a really great experience and I got to meet and reconnect with some really amazing people. Hopefully, in the future I'll be able to do some more theatre at North. Maybe I'll even be on for more than 30 seconds next time. Just being a part of it was exciting, especially because I just love to be on stage. There's nothing like the rush you get from acting. The only thing that's come close to it is Winterguard, and then that's a completely different world.
I've lost touch with Zoe and Erin. It's weird. It's like one day we were all there, locked in friendship. We went to Spring, then soccer and track and the play started and we were all gone. Are they mad at me? Do they notice I'm gone? I don't know. I kind of feel like a little piece of me isn't quite right without them there, but I feel like it's been to long now without me fixing it. Can I still fix it? What ever it is? I hope so. Suggestions on how would be much appreciated.
I made Wind Ensemble. I wasn't even nervous in my audition. It was beautiful. Band tour next year is going to kick ass. I'm still praying that someone drops and Dan gets to be up there with us. It would royally suck if he wasn't.
And now what you've all been waiting for. I'll put it behind a tab if that's all you want to read so you know it's important.
For those of you that haven't heard yet I HAVE A BOYFRIEND!!!!!!!!
Crazy? I think so. I wasn't planning on it. He just kind of came out of no where and this whole thing has been happening so fast. But I'm happy. I'm really really happy. As it all started I said to someone (I don't remember who) "I forgot what it was like to feel like this. I forgot that another person could affect me like this." Gosh, it's crazy.
His name is Eric Larson. Nickname: Puffy. He's 17, a junior and he goes to Central. He's "blonde" in the sun and has the most amazingly amazing blue eyes. He plays Euphonium and is in Wind Ensemble. He's also... A DRUM CORPS BOY!!!!! He's marching with Madison Scouts this summer. *Melts* He's a good christian boy. He goes to Grace and being Christian is a big part of his life. He also plays the piano and loves to drive. Fast. You want to know the best part? He likes me. I don't think there is anything more attractive than an attractive boy being interested in you.
We met at Colorguard Circuit Championships. His litter sister , Nina (whom I love), was in Steperettes this year. He knew Linsdsey from summer band, so he hung out with our guard all weekend. We hung out at the dance and pizza party and he sat in the stands with us on Sunday. I didn't think much of it. He was just a cute boy, but he was pretty much taken by Lindsey as far as the guard was concerned. So I was able to completely relax. No uptight worries about whether I looked good. I didn't worry about what I said or did. It was guard. I was just me being completely myself surrounded by friends.
When we got back, we found out that Puffy , yeah, liked Lindsey, but he really wanted to get to know Blair. Well, shit. I tried to give Lindsey a chance, I swear I did. But he is such a flirt and I fell hard and fast. I was just so comfortable around him. It was the most myself I'd felt in months. The more he and I talked, the worse it got, and finally I had to say something to him about Lindsey. I told him of course I liked him, but friends came first. When I finally got up the courage to talk to Lindsey about it, she told me it was ok, she didn't really like him anymore. So he and I went on our first date.
Well, Lindsey was lying. She did still like him. But I was too far into it. The ball was in her court, so I just went along as though I didn't know she was upset about it. I think she finally moved on, cause we're talking again and she actually hung out with me an Puffy last friday. What a relief that was.
So thinks started moving crazy fast. And by that I mean emotionally. My mom was freaking out that there was a boy. My dad was saying it was about time. Curfews started being implemented. A terrible horrible sex talk occured that I don't really want to talk about. I met his parents. He met mine,
He asked me to prom by having a flower delivered to me each period with notes "Will. You. Go. To. Prom. With." I spent all 8th period waiting for the last one to come. It never did. So I checked with the dean's office. They didn't know where it was. So I just figured it had gotten lost. Nope. That night he shows up to pick me up for our date and meet my parents. He's holding a full boquet and a card that says "me?" *Melt*
I don't know. It's just something about him. I am so incredibly comfortable around him. Just being in the same room as him makes me glow. I don't feel like I'm fake, or trying to hard, or putting on a show. It's just me, and him. It doesn't matter where we are, or what we're doing. *giggles* I'm sorry. I'm being sappy. But I am just so HAPPY!!!!! oh no I rhymed.
So I wasn't going to make it official, but it just made things easier to explain to people for us so say boyfriend and girlfriend. I wasn't going to make it official because he leaves May 19th for 3 months. He'll be gone on tour with Scouts until August. So May 19th I won't have a boyfriend anymore. We decided (or I decided) that things would be better that way, if neither had to worry about what the other was doing when we weren't going to see each other for so long. We're going to write. And I won't be looking for anyone else or anything. I just don't want to take the chance of having my heart broken in a letter. Everytime I think about him leaving, I kind of want to cry. Everytime he hugs me, I don't ever want to let go, because I know that soon there's going to be a "last hug" and a "last kiss". Even if they aren't the very last (which I pray they won't be) it will feel like it. But for now, I just have to know that I have 18 more days left. I have the 40's dance and Prom. And if nothing else, I know I've met an incredible guy that I'm positive will be a part of my life in some way for a very long time.
So now you've heard. I've been gushy. I've been sweet. But now, Under the Tuscan Sun is on and I've already missed half of it. Also, I have to do my drug wheel. So I hope you enjoyed my little update on life.
Thanks for Reading!
TTFN!
Anyway, I woke up this morning with a screaming sore throat and when it didn't go away after my shower, I told my mom and she wouldn't let me go to school. The symptoms just got worse as the day went on so I'm really glad I stayed home. The good news is now I might actually have time to sit down and tell you all what's been going on in my life. So here goes.
Ok, I'm going to jump around a little here, but I'll try not to be too confusing. Let's go back to Spring play auditions. When I found out the show was going to be Picasso at the Lapin Agile, I got really excited because I have that play and I've read it and I looooooove it. I was really nervous for my audition because I'd never read for Burghardt before and there were so few parts etc, etc. As I walked to school the day of the audition, I just told my self "Relax Blair, it's not a cold read because you know the play. So what if there aren't that many girl parts. All you have to do is read better than all the other girls. Just be better." Yeah, easier said than done, but I like a reach for the stars nearly impossible mantra when I'm trying to do something. Dan Wood saved my life by asking me to audition with him. It was so much fun reading, and looking around at everyone else rehearsing their lines, I felt pretty confident. When I got into the audition, it was honestly fun. One of the most fun auditions I'd ever had. So I felt good because even if I didn't get a part, I knew I'd had an awesome audition.
Well, I got a part. Female Admirer. Very small role, but hey, Mr. B could have chosen anyone to do it, and he chose me. *grins and sparkles*
The show went up last weekend and I'm so glad I did it. It was a really great experience and I got to meet and reconnect with some really amazing people. Hopefully, in the future I'll be able to do some more theatre at North. Maybe I'll even be on for more than 30 seconds next time. Just being a part of it was exciting, especially because I just love to be on stage. There's nothing like the rush you get from acting. The only thing that's come close to it is Winterguard, and then that's a completely different world.
I've lost touch with Zoe and Erin. It's weird. It's like one day we were all there, locked in friendship. We went to Spring, then soccer and track and the play started and we were all gone. Are they mad at me? Do they notice I'm gone? I don't know. I kind of feel like a little piece of me isn't quite right without them there, but I feel like it's been to long now without me fixing it. Can I still fix it? What ever it is? I hope so. Suggestions on how would be much appreciated.
I made Wind Ensemble. I wasn't even nervous in my audition. It was beautiful. Band tour next year is going to kick ass. I'm still praying that someone drops and Dan gets to be up there with us. It would royally suck if he wasn't.
And now what you've all been waiting for. I'll put it behind a tab if that's all you want to read so you know it's important.
For those of you that haven't heard yet I HAVE A BOYFRIEND!!!!!!!!
Crazy? I think so. I wasn't planning on it. He just kind of came out of no where and this whole thing has been happening so fast. But I'm happy. I'm really really happy. As it all started I said to someone (I don't remember who) "I forgot what it was like to feel like this. I forgot that another person could affect me like this." Gosh, it's crazy.
His name is Eric Larson. Nickname: Puffy. He's 17, a junior and he goes to Central. He's "blonde" in the sun and has the most amazingly amazing blue eyes. He plays Euphonium and is in Wind Ensemble. He's also... A DRUM CORPS BOY!!!!! He's marching with Madison Scouts this summer. *Melts* He's a good christian boy. He goes to Grace and being Christian is a big part of his life. He also plays the piano and loves to drive. Fast. You want to know the best part? He likes me. I don't think there is anything more attractive than an attractive boy being interested in you.
We met at Colorguard Circuit Championships. His litter sister , Nina (whom I love), was in Steperettes this year. He knew Linsdsey from summer band, so he hung out with our guard all weekend. We hung out at the dance and pizza party and he sat in the stands with us on Sunday. I didn't think much of it. He was just a cute boy, but he was pretty much taken by Lindsey as far as the guard was concerned. So I was able to completely relax. No uptight worries about whether I looked good. I didn't worry about what I said or did. It was guard. I was just me being completely myself surrounded by friends.
When we got back, we found out that Puffy , yeah, liked Lindsey, but he really wanted to get to know Blair. Well, shit. I tried to give Lindsey a chance, I swear I did. But he is such a flirt and I fell hard and fast. I was just so comfortable around him. It was the most myself I'd felt in months. The more he and I talked, the worse it got, and finally I had to say something to him about Lindsey. I told him of course I liked him, but friends came first. When I finally got up the courage to talk to Lindsey about it, she told me it was ok, she didn't really like him anymore. So he and I went on our first date.
Well, Lindsey was lying. She did still like him. But I was too far into it. The ball was in her court, so I just went along as though I didn't know she was upset about it. I think she finally moved on, cause we're talking again and she actually hung out with me an Puffy last friday. What a relief that was.
So thinks started moving crazy fast. And by that I mean emotionally. My mom was freaking out that there was a boy. My dad was saying it was about time. Curfews started being implemented. A terrible horrible sex talk occured that I don't really want to talk about. I met his parents. He met mine,
He asked me to prom by having a flower delivered to me each period with notes "Will. You. Go. To. Prom. With." I spent all 8th period waiting for the last one to come. It never did. So I checked with the dean's office. They didn't know where it was. So I just figured it had gotten lost. Nope. That night he shows up to pick me up for our date and meet my parents. He's holding a full boquet and a card that says "me?" *Melt*
I don't know. It's just something about him. I am so incredibly comfortable around him. Just being in the same room as him makes me glow. I don't feel like I'm fake, or trying to hard, or putting on a show. It's just me, and him. It doesn't matter where we are, or what we're doing. *giggles* I'm sorry. I'm being sappy. But I am just so HAPPY!!!!! oh no I rhymed.
So I wasn't going to make it official, but it just made things easier to explain to people for us so say boyfriend and girlfriend. I wasn't going to make it official because he leaves May 19th for 3 months. He'll be gone on tour with Scouts until August. So May 19th I won't have a boyfriend anymore. We decided (or I decided) that things would be better that way, if neither had to worry about what the other was doing when we weren't going to see each other for so long. We're going to write. And I won't be looking for anyone else or anything. I just don't want to take the chance of having my heart broken in a letter. Everytime I think about him leaving, I kind of want to cry. Everytime he hugs me, I don't ever want to let go, because I know that soon there's going to be a "last hug" and a "last kiss". Even if they aren't the very last (which I pray they won't be) it will feel like it. But for now, I just have to know that I have 18 more days left. I have the 40's dance and Prom. And if nothing else, I know I've met an incredible guy that I'm positive will be a part of my life in some way for a very long time.
So now you've heard. I've been gushy. I've been sweet. But now, Under the Tuscan Sun is on and I've already missed half of it. Also, I have to do my drug wheel. So I hope you enjoyed my little update on life.
Thanks for Reading!
TTFN!