yeargh,,,
stuff is...
erm?
stuff?
i dunno.
i guess it just is.
mostly it sucks.
mostly i want to punch everybody in the face.
mostly i want to crawl up into a little ball in a hole and die.
mostly everything is hectic and obnoxious and causes me a great deal of annoyance and pain and vomitotious stress.
yeah.
mostly la vie est le shite.
i think i'll start packing soon...i mean, i know i have a month or so...but at least it will seem more real.
i think too much.
i feel like crap today...i think i'm dying...and then i just wanted a chill evening out with my guy and he has to turn all 'paranoid bf' on me and freak out...thus ruining my nite...good one kid...good one.
it's really weird to love someone that much. it's like, i can hate him with every fibre of my being, and still be lost if he were to go away.
yeah...love is a highly overrated thing. i'm surprised most people don't just reject it all together. love makes you want to vomit and slit your wrists. that's what love does. maybe these 'other' ppl who are 'happy' in their relationships have discovered some sort of healthy love that no one has told me about yet...is this possible? *le ponder* maybe i just need healthy love...wait...no...no love at all is better.
if you never give your heart away, you can never have it broken into a bagillion little pieces.
i suppose i'm being too harsh...
it's just been a really bad day.
i suppose i should go to bed and try to recover from this horrible burn-out from which i still appear to be suffering.
this sucks.
i gotta change my life soon or something bad is going to happen.
i can't go on fighting like this.
i can't suffer through the constant fighting for a couple seconds of happiness.
man.
pay no attention to this.
i'm just exhausted and rambling.
hugsnsmooches for all!
~me
erm?
stuff?
i dunno.
i guess it just is.
mostly it sucks.
mostly i want to punch everybody in the face.
mostly i want to crawl up into a little ball in a hole and die.
mostly everything is hectic and obnoxious and causes me a great deal of annoyance and pain and vomitotious stress.
yeah.
mostly la vie est le shite.
i think i'll start packing soon...i mean, i know i have a month or so...but at least it will seem more real.
i think too much.
i feel like crap today...i think i'm dying...and then i just wanted a chill evening out with my guy and he has to turn all 'paranoid bf' on me and freak out...thus ruining my nite...good one kid...good one.
it's really weird to love someone that much. it's like, i can hate him with every fibre of my being, and still be lost if he were to go away.
yeah...love is a highly overrated thing. i'm surprised most people don't just reject it all together. love makes you want to vomit and slit your wrists. that's what love does. maybe these 'other' ppl who are 'happy' in their relationships have discovered some sort of healthy love that no one has told me about yet...is this possible? *le ponder* maybe i just need healthy love...wait...no...no love at all is better.
if you never give your heart away, you can never have it broken into a bagillion little pieces.
i suppose i'm being too harsh...
it's just been a really bad day.
i suppose i should go to bed and try to recover from this horrible burn-out from which i still appear to be suffering.
this sucks.
i gotta change my life soon or something bad is going to happen.
i can't go on fighting like this.
i can't suffer through the constant fighting for a couple seconds of happiness.
man.
pay no attention to this.
i'm just exhausted and rambling.
hugsnsmooches for all!
~me