short update!
so...anyone who isn't already on my friends list, and would like to be...should tell me now and I will add them. Because in the very near future my livejournal will be friends only...and no one, i mean NO ONE will want to miss out on the excitement that is my life!!! but seriously...if you read this already and aren't on my friends list, let me know and I'll add you...cause I'm awesome like that.
okay...
on a different note.
i'm pretty sure i just got kicked out.
yep.
thinking about it more.
i just got kicked out.
so...i'm doing the rest of my laundry...I've packed a whole bunch of shite...tomorrow afternoon i'm asking my dad to take me to the bank so i can withdraw all of my investments...and then by tomorrow night/early friday i will have disappeared into the peterpatch, never to have to deal with the bitchface again...well...at least not on a daily basis.
i really wish my family wasn't so fucked up.
i mean, i have been outright asking for help for the past two weeks because i have been afraid that i am going to kill myself...and they ignore me...right to my face...here's an example:
"hey mum...I've been feeling super down again...and i really think my brain is fucked up again...i really think that i'm going to slit my wrists and try to kill myself again..."
"oh yeah...well if you think YOU have problems...let me tell you about mine...blah blah blah."
so yeah...
no one gets it.
whatever...
i'll move out and disappear.
i've already decided to stay in the peterpatch for thanksgiving...i really don't need to return to this shit hole any more than necessary.
i'm emotionally drained today.
i think that's all that's wrong.
i dunno...but i love you all and it's because of you i'm still here.
~me
okay...
on a different note.
i'm pretty sure i just got kicked out.
yep.
thinking about it more.
i just got kicked out.
so...i'm doing the rest of my laundry...I've packed a whole bunch of shite...tomorrow afternoon i'm asking my dad to take me to the bank so i can withdraw all of my investments...and then by tomorrow night/early friday i will have disappeared into the peterpatch, never to have to deal with the bitchface again...well...at least not on a daily basis.
i really wish my family wasn't so fucked up.
i mean, i have been outright asking for help for the past two weeks because i have been afraid that i am going to kill myself...and they ignore me...right to my face...here's an example:
"hey mum...I've been feeling super down again...and i really think my brain is fucked up again...i really think that i'm going to slit my wrists and try to kill myself again..."
"oh yeah...well if you think YOU have problems...let me tell you about mine...blah blah blah."
so yeah...
no one gets it.
whatever...
i'll move out and disappear.
i've already decided to stay in the peterpatch for thanksgiving...i really don't need to return to this shit hole any more than necessary.
i'm emotionally drained today.
i think that's all that's wrong.
i dunno...but i love you all and it's because of you i'm still here.
~me