Can we say "issues...?"
yeah so earlier today i write this long ass post and mostly i did it to vent a little but still...i hit update and it goes to the cannot display screen so i hit refresh and comes to the screen i am writing in now but there is nothing there!GRRRR! that made me sooo mad considering i was already irrate. i will give you a short (hopefully) runthrough.
Okay, so i was in a great mood and chris came over and he brought me some pink roses (yes, he can be sweet). well that was great until one of his friends, who he has been trying to blow off cause he is annoying, calls my house. we look at the caller ID and were like "WTF?" i have no idea where he got my home number, kinda scary. well chris is like "answer it" so i do cause its his friend, but i wansnt going to answer it at first. well this guy is like "is this your number or chris'" and im like "its mine." so he asks for chris' home number and i know chris doesnt want me to give it to him cause his dad doesnt want his friends calling the house and i know chris doesnt want to talk to him. so im like "well im not supposed to give out his number" and told him about his dad. and then he said he has it somewhere but he cant find it, which i know is true cause he has called chris' house b4. so when he says that im like, okay i will give it to him am did. well that was a BIG MISTAKE. cris storms outta my house puching shit on his way and slamming the door. i get off the phone and follow him out and hes getting in his car. then he starts yelling about how he just got me flowers and i just threw it in his face by doing something he knows i didnt want him to. but its not like that was the first time i had done something like that, so i could see why he was bitching. i hate that about myself: the fact that i cant think under pressure and always end up doing the wrong thing (like today) or i just cant ever give straight answers. these things bother him and i dont blame him so i felt bad about doing that. so he left and then came back later about 30 min b4 i had to be at work (at 4). and were ok (trying to just forget about what happened) until he was like "lets go eat somewhere. call work and ask if you can come in at like 4:30 or 5." and i said no cause i cant go in that late and i didnt think we would have time even if i did go in at 4:30, which was possible. so he again got frustrated with me saying i dont want to spend time with him and that i just said no for the hell of it and that i never want to do ANYTHING he suggests. so left and i had to call my boss to come pick me up for work. he called me before i left and was like "did you find a ride?" and i said that my boss was going to send someone to pick me up. well he was totally adimant about making sure this one guy, Hugo, wanst going to pick me up. The story: at a party i had at my apt. we were all playing strip poker and for no reason (it wasnt my turn to take anything off)Hugo undid my bra and chris got really pissed cause that was really disrespectful, especially right in front of my bf. so chris has not liked him since. anyway, hes like "if hugo shows up at your house, call me and i will take you to work." i told him that was ridiculous and i wasnt going to call my boss for a ride, have him send someone to pick my ass up, who he didnt want to take, and then send him back and call chris! so dumb. so hes said to call my boss and ask who he was sending. he said he would come himself so chris was satisfied with that but then just kept bitching at me about everything else. so i hung up on him and wouldnt answer when he called so he came over (which i knew he would so then i was wishing i would have stayed on the phone with him). well he kept bitching at me and was talking about breaking up and shit (he never means it). well my boss pulls up and i had to tell him that chris just got there and i couldnt get a hold of him earlier to give me a ride. chris calls my cell phone while im on my way and is like "do you not love me?" and im like "yes i do why?" and he was like "well why didnt you say it back after i did before you left?" it turns out i didnt hear him. and we were on the phone for 30 mins. just back and forth, blah, blah, blah. i tried not to think about it all night and then he called me at 9 to ask if i wanted him to pick me up. and he did and we were fine, all seemed forgotten. a while back he had some of my money from weed of mine that he was selling for me. then our way home tonight i said i was hungry and he said wanna go to angelina'a and i said yeah. hes like i only have 11 dollars and i told him to throw in some of the money that he had that was mine and thats when he told me there was only 60 dollars and he bought weed so there wasnt anymore. i was pissed and threw a really sweet note that i had written for him at work out the window and sat in silence. then when we turned on my street i was like i think im just gonna go inside and stay. that pissed him off and he called me later wanting me to come over and i just said i dont have a way over there so goodnight i love you. thats the last thing that happened, he thinks i dicked him over to go eat and hang out with him.
that was anything but short and i went outside halfway through writing this and me and kat got high. so it has been a slow process to write the last half. im exhausted now so goodnight.
oh yeah i cried earlier too when one of my cats chewed up the ribbon on my roses and proceeded to knock them over breaking one of the roses stems. : (
wtf? theyre flowers. im so emotional lately.
Okay, so i was in a great mood and chris came over and he brought me some pink roses (yes, he can be sweet). well that was great until one of his friends, who he has been trying to blow off cause he is annoying, calls my house. we look at the caller ID and were like "WTF?" i have no idea where he got my home number, kinda scary. well chris is like "answer it" so i do cause its his friend, but i wansnt going to answer it at first. well this guy is like "is this your number or chris'" and im like "its mine." so he asks for chris' home number and i know chris doesnt want me to give it to him cause his dad doesnt want his friends calling the house and i know chris doesnt want to talk to him. so im like "well im not supposed to give out his number" and told him about his dad. and then he said he has it somewhere but he cant find it, which i know is true cause he has called chris' house b4. so when he says that im like, okay i will give it to him am did. well that was a BIG MISTAKE. cris storms outta my house puching shit on his way and slamming the door. i get off the phone and follow him out and hes getting in his car. then he starts yelling about how he just got me flowers and i just threw it in his face by doing something he knows i didnt want him to. but its not like that was the first time i had done something like that, so i could see why he was bitching. i hate that about myself: the fact that i cant think under pressure and always end up doing the wrong thing (like today) or i just cant ever give straight answers. these things bother him and i dont blame him so i felt bad about doing that. so he left and then came back later about 30 min b4 i had to be at work (at 4). and were ok (trying to just forget about what happened) until he was like "lets go eat somewhere. call work and ask if you can come in at like 4:30 or 5." and i said no cause i cant go in that late and i didnt think we would have time even if i did go in at 4:30, which was possible. so he again got frustrated with me saying i dont want to spend time with him and that i just said no for the hell of it and that i never want to do ANYTHING he suggests. so left and i had to call my boss to come pick me up for work. he called me before i left and was like "did you find a ride?" and i said that my boss was going to send someone to pick me up. well he was totally adimant about making sure this one guy, Hugo, wanst going to pick me up. The story: at a party i had at my apt. we were all playing strip poker and for no reason (it wasnt my turn to take anything off)Hugo undid my bra and chris got really pissed cause that was really disrespectful, especially right in front of my bf. so chris has not liked him since. anyway, hes like "if hugo shows up at your house, call me and i will take you to work." i told him that was ridiculous and i wasnt going to call my boss for a ride, have him send someone to pick my ass up, who he didnt want to take, and then send him back and call chris! so dumb. so hes said to call my boss and ask who he was sending. he said he would come himself so chris was satisfied with that but then just kept bitching at me about everything else. so i hung up on him and wouldnt answer when he called so he came over (which i knew he would so then i was wishing i would have stayed on the phone with him). well he kept bitching at me and was talking about breaking up and shit (he never means it). well my boss pulls up and i had to tell him that chris just got there and i couldnt get a hold of him earlier to give me a ride. chris calls my cell phone while im on my way and is like "do you not love me?" and im like "yes i do why?" and he was like "well why didnt you say it back after i did before you left?" it turns out i didnt hear him. and we were on the phone for 30 mins. just back and forth, blah, blah, blah. i tried not to think about it all night and then he called me at 9 to ask if i wanted him to pick me up. and he did and we were fine, all seemed forgotten. a while back he had some of my money from weed of mine that he was selling for me. then our way home tonight i said i was hungry and he said wanna go to angelina'a and i said yeah. hes like i only have 11 dollars and i told him to throw in some of the money that he had that was mine and thats when he told me there was only 60 dollars and he bought weed so there wasnt anymore. i was pissed and threw a really sweet note that i had written for him at work out the window and sat in silence. then when we turned on my street i was like i think im just gonna go inside and stay. that pissed him off and he called me later wanting me to come over and i just said i dont have a way over there so goodnight i love you. thats the last thing that happened, he thinks i dicked him over to go eat and hang out with him.
that was anything but short and i went outside halfway through writing this and me and kat got high. so it has been a slow process to write the last half. im exhausted now so goodnight.
oh yeah i cried earlier too when one of my cats chewed up the ribbon on my roses and proceeded to knock them over breaking one of the roses stems. : (
wtf? theyre flowers. im so emotional lately.