"Take my heart and form it. Take my mind. Transform it. Take my will. Conform it. TO YOURS OH LORD!"
So... my amazing roomie Ashley got me started listening to John Piper sermons online. I for one love John Piper and I always have since I used to go to his church a couple of years ago in Minnesota. So when Ash showed me I can listen to 10 trillion sermons I fell in love :) It's hard for me to stay on one book of the bible or a devotional book for very long so this is a good way to spice up my quiet times :) So I listened to a sermon on prayer today. It was freakin amazing. I feel like that is an area where I fail a lot. I don't talk to my Father enough. So after I listened to that sermon I turned up some music and just sat on my floor and prayed. It was a very awesome experience and I haven't done that in a very long time. There was something the Lord showed me though. I am spiritually emotionally dead. I feel nothing. I feel no pain for anything spiritual. This is very screwed up. I'm not sure what to do about it either. So once the Lord revealed that to me I just prayed. Prayed that He would break my heart of stone. Prayed that He would break my will. Prayed that he would crush my selfish desires. And then I realized something else. I have lost a lot of faith. Not faith in God but faith in His faithfulness. Faith in the terms of trusting Him to do what He promises. I don't know if this is making sense or not. Then as I was praying I remembered a verse Becka shared at bible study and I'd like to share it with all of you because it has always been one of my favorite verses...
"I do not set aside the grace of God; for if righteousness comes through the law, then Christ died in vain."
"I do not set aside the grace of God, for if righteousness could be gained through the law, Christ died for nothing."
"I am not one of those who treats the grace of God as meaningless. For if we could be saved by keeping the law, then there was no need for Christ to die."
GALATIANS 2:21
Anyway... that's just sorda where I'm at right now. On a lighter note :)
My birthday would be tomorrow... it's kinda weird. My parents came to town last night and Sterl, me and my parents all cooked dinner and stuff. It was very fun indeed but my mom wrote on my white board and said "Happy 20th birthday." It was odd. And then my brother sent me a card that said "I can't believe you're 20. It seems like you just turned 12." (my brother is 4 years older than me) and that's how I feel as well! I used to look at 20 as old ya know? And now I am 20. Granted this means nothing to ANY of you because the majority of you are 21 or older ;) So I know all of you have been through this... but yeah... no longer a teenager. It's odd. I want to thank ALL of you who are helping with my birthday. I don't know exactly what's going on or who all is doing what but thank you :) I'm very excited and I think it will be a fun weekend. Now I'm off to do some school before the weekend officially begins. I hope everyone is doing well. School is already stressing me out and it's just Septiembre! EEEKKKKK! Much love and many prayers to you all. Have a wonderful day in our amazing, awesome and gracious God.
"I do not set aside the grace of God; for if righteousness comes through the law, then Christ died in vain."
"I do not set aside the grace of God, for if righteousness could be gained through the law, Christ died for nothing."
"I am not one of those who treats the grace of God as meaningless. For if we could be saved by keeping the law, then there was no need for Christ to die."
GALATIANS 2:21
Anyway... that's just sorda where I'm at right now. On a lighter note :)
My birthday would be tomorrow... it's kinda weird. My parents came to town last night and Sterl, me and my parents all cooked dinner and stuff. It was very fun indeed but my mom wrote on my white board and said "Happy 20th birthday." It was odd. And then my brother sent me a card that said "I can't believe you're 20. It seems like you just turned 12." (my brother is 4 years older than me) and that's how I feel as well! I used to look at 20 as old ya know? And now I am 20. Granted this means nothing to ANY of you because the majority of you are 21 or older ;) So I know all of you have been through this... but yeah... no longer a teenager. It's odd. I want to thank ALL of you who are helping with my birthday. I don't know exactly what's going on or who all is doing what but thank you :) I'm very excited and I think it will be a fun weekend. Now I'm off to do some school before the weekend officially begins. I hope everyone is doing well. School is already stressing me out and it's just Septiembre! EEEKKKKK! Much love and many prayers to you all. Have a wonderful day in our amazing, awesome and gracious God.