Beside Myself
So this is the first time I will have put anything that I have thought in plain view of others. It is almost scary. It is not like I care how people see me; but instead, I don't like to let people into my private life. Well, I am still in pain from having a baby. It is my second one. I want to go back to work and help pay for things around here, but I am not supposed to yet. That's crap. I need to get up and do something. I almost feel like I'm wasting away. Like if I have to sit around for one more day, I will melt down. I constantly have to remind myself that it just takes time to recover.
I am so tired all the time. My boyfriend tells me to relax. He tells me that I do too much. I did not believe him; then when I went to the doctors they told me the same thing. I felt kind of embarrassed. I am very stubborn. I will do what ever I want to because I want to do it. It does not matter if it is physically impossible for me, I WILL DO IT! That is how it is. I also have a lot of pride. It is a major downfall of mine.
I live with my boyfriend and our two kids. I love him so much. I don't take it for granted that he has stuck by my side through all of this. You know what I'm talking about if you were pregnant or know someone who is/was. And he has been here for two. Someone else needs to give him some credit; trust me, it's due. He is such a good person and a great father. I really can't tell you what I'd do without him here. Probably go insane from the crying, diaper changing, being up at all hours, and being spit/thrown up on. You don't even know. Maybe it's best that way.
Well, I think that may be it for now. Knowing me I'll probably come on later and do another entry. Oh well, that's what this is here for.
I am so tired all the time. My boyfriend tells me to relax. He tells me that I do too much. I did not believe him; then when I went to the doctors they told me the same thing. I felt kind of embarrassed. I am very stubborn. I will do what ever I want to because I want to do it. It does not matter if it is physically impossible for me, I WILL DO IT! That is how it is. I also have a lot of pride. It is a major downfall of mine.
I live with my boyfriend and our two kids. I love him so much. I don't take it for granted that he has stuck by my side through all of this. You know what I'm talking about if you were pregnant or know someone who is/was. And he has been here for two. Someone else needs to give him some credit; trust me, it's due. He is such a good person and a great father. I really can't tell you what I'd do without him here. Probably go insane from the crying, diaper changing, being up at all hours, and being spit/thrown up on. You don't even know. Maybe it's best that way.
Well, I think that may be it for now. Knowing me I'll probably come on later and do another entry. Oh well, that's what this is here for.