rain
i love these kinds of days. rain and clouds and niceness.
not much has been going on. i've been a little depressed as of late. i realize that, no matter how much i try to think it's not an issue, i will always worry about my weight. i try to eat healthy, then don't, then cry because i feel so bad. it's weird. i don't starve myself, i don't puke what i eat, i just feel really bad. also, i've noticed that i'm lonely as fuck. it's not that i odn't have friends. i have plenty. i also hang out a lot with people. i'm not alone except when i'm sleeping or not wanting to see other people. but i'm lonely. i can't explain. it's odd. it's getting me down.
back to food, tonight i'm making my mom dinner. her birthday was thursday and i'm broke and uncreative. the menu:
salad of fresh greens, carrots, cabbage, and the like
potato soup from scratch
steaks with a hint of gralic and truffle oil
caramel chocolate brownies, from scratch
red wine
coffee
i think she's gonna enjoy the meal, expecially since i'm doing the dishes. i've gotta get to the store and to her house before she gets home from class.
word.
not much has been going on. i've been a little depressed as of late. i realize that, no matter how much i try to think it's not an issue, i will always worry about my weight. i try to eat healthy, then don't, then cry because i feel so bad. it's weird. i don't starve myself, i don't puke what i eat, i just feel really bad. also, i've noticed that i'm lonely as fuck. it's not that i odn't have friends. i have plenty. i also hang out a lot with people. i'm not alone except when i'm sleeping or not wanting to see other people. but i'm lonely. i can't explain. it's odd. it's getting me down.
back to food, tonight i'm making my mom dinner. her birthday was thursday and i'm broke and uncreative. the menu:
salad of fresh greens, carrots, cabbage, and the like
potato soup from scratch
steaks with a hint of gralic and truffle oil
caramel chocolate brownies, from scratch
red wine
coffee
i think she's gonna enjoy the meal, expecially since i'm doing the dishes. i've gotta get to the store and to her house before she gets home from class.
word.