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If im a whore cuz I did stuff with him what does that make him!?!? A pimp. Yeah its so stupid how a guy can be with a girl and then talk shit about her, but yet in the same breathe brag about it. It makes absolutly no sense to me. Someone help me out here. I guess what Im trying to say is guys are assholes. And Im sick of being used as a piece of ass and getting nothing out of it in the end. It would be nice to be treated like I mean something to someone and it would be nice to have good memories and whatnot. I want to find someone who wants me because I have a great personality and because Im chill to be around. I know it wouldnt be because im pretty or skinny, because Im not. I just need to find that person out there.
I have come to another conclusion as well. I am done smoking. (Well at least done buying them) and I will no longer drink every night of the weekend. I did something this weekend that i hadnt done all summer, and that was have a girls night, where there was no alcohol involved and no guys. It was so much fun.
I think i am in a depressed state right now. I never smile. I dont know how to smile actually. I mean i dont even laugh at funny movies anymore. I hard on myself... I am constantly worrying about what other people think, and I never want to hurt their feelings or make them feel uncomfortable around me so I do what they want. They tell me to jump and I say how high. I need to stop putting other people first and focus on myself.
Lastly I need to stop spending money. Quitting the whole smoking hting will help but Im not so sure it wiwill be enough. Im done eating out with my friends im doen spending my money on stupid shit. I need to save it if I ever want anything in life. I mean right?!?! Yeah... I thought so. I mean a trip to Virgina sounds mighty nice :)
Yeah SO I saw WInston today. I love that boy. He took me to Church.
Man this entry sounds like a gawd damn actual Journal entry. Thats lame. Alright Im going to bed.
Much love my friends ♥
I have come to another conclusion as well. I am done smoking. (Well at least done buying them) and I will no longer drink every night of the weekend. I did something this weekend that i hadnt done all summer, and that was have a girls night, where there was no alcohol involved and no guys. It was so much fun.
I think i am in a depressed state right now. I never smile. I dont know how to smile actually. I mean i dont even laugh at funny movies anymore. I hard on myself... I am constantly worrying about what other people think, and I never want to hurt their feelings or make them feel uncomfortable around me so I do what they want. They tell me to jump and I say how high. I need to stop putting other people first and focus on myself.
Lastly I need to stop spending money. Quitting the whole smoking hting will help but Im not so sure it wiwill be enough. Im done eating out with my friends im doen spending my money on stupid shit. I need to save it if I ever want anything in life. I mean right?!?! Yeah... I thought so. I mean a trip to Virgina sounds mighty nice :)
Yeah SO I saw WInston today. I love that boy. He took me to Church.
Man this entry sounds like a gawd damn actual Journal entry. Thats lame. Alright Im going to bed.
Much love my friends ♥