Sep 16, 2005 22:29
I've gotten good with letting things go. I was close to murdering someone today. But I let it slide...
On the Light Rail, some black teen and his posse got all riled up after I accidentally stepped on his shoes. They then commenced with death threats and obcenities? Hey, they even brought the issue of race into the one-sided dispute. I think I might have snapped so much that I silently sat down without saying a word or even remotely reacting in anyway. I noticed how others around us got uncomfortable though. Those weren't passing, empty threats either. Those people wanted my blood.
Really now, would one value shoes more than another's life? People like him shouldn't even be spending money on shoes. No offense, but his kind are statistically shown to live in poverty conditions. And I'm not talking about black people, I mean the general ruffian type that I've encountered this past summer. At risk youth in such conditions usually result to crime, drugs, and violent and disruptive tendencies.
But, as I first stated, I'm good at letting things go now. I try to respect people who exhibit a certain degree of respect for themselves and others. Eh, I'm just to busy to concentrate on that problem at the moment. Besides, stating all of my "solutions" would label me as a racist and fascist.
I hate myself sometimes for thinking such things... but if they only remain thoughts, than they can't hurt anyone. Right?