Merlin: I’m sorry father, but fuck you.
Title: I’m sorry father, but fuck you.
Genre: Drabble
Fandon: Merlin
Pairing, or characters: No pairing
Word count: 300-400 words.
Orginally written for this kinkme_merlin prompt:Only when Uther Pendragon is dead and gone, his kingly body presented on a cold stone slab, can Arthur truly speak his mind to his father.
Summary: I’m sorry, but fuck you dad. Fuck you for dying, fuck you for leaving me all alone, and fuck you for never loving me the way you should have.
“Do you remember when I came home after Morgause told me what really happened to my mother? How I challenged not only you, but your honour? All my life you went on about how magic was something of a sin, but you yourself had used it to create me, and as a direct result you killed my mother. I think that was the day I finally saw you as a pathetic old man, who was only trying desperately to hold onto his power.
Seriously, my whole life before that was trying to make you proud. God, what I would have killed for you to utter those six words I am proud of you son. I mean sure you said it when I slayed a beast that threatening the entire kingdom, but would it have been so difficult to tell me once that you were proud of a small achievement, or even just something I tried? You know Merlin was right, I am a prat. I’m a prat for ever thinking that you were worthy to rule Camelot. Worthy of being my father, you weren’t even worthy of being Morgana’s father.
Fuck, Dad. You made me envy Morgana, even after she betrayed you. She had the courage to leave you. If it weren’t for Camelot, and the oath I took I doubted I would have stayed inside these castle walls. I think I would have followed her right out those gates and into your enemy’s arms. Maybe then I would have been granted some respect. Maybe then you would have been proud of me. I know even though Morgana betrayed you I know you were proud of her, she was able to take what she wanted without even bothering to ask your permission. Only a real Pendragon would do that.
I’m sorry, but fuck you dad. Fuck you for dying, fuck you for leaving me all alone, and fuck you for never loving me the way you should have”