HATE IS WHAT BURNS INSIDE ME
School has been upsetting for me lately.
For some strange odd reason every close person I talk to is leaving my path of life.
I can really careless because that’s how life is.
But that’s just my stubborn side. I no longer have Tony.
I guess It’s best for me not to have him. I need to be more independent and live my life more by myself. I cant have him always by my side. And it wouldn’t be a good friendship since he is only doing it because he loves me. But not having a guardian shall be hard, for I am lonely now.
But I’ll survive.
Leighton said a few rude words to me which didn’t bother me because I know the real me(“You’re an attention whore who seeks men attention). I’m no longer talking to him though.
He thinks just because he can tell me, I’m actually going to shut up and still be his friend? I don’t think so.
He can say his opinion but I’m not going to take it like a whore tied up to a leash.
Today Alyssa AKA Anezka said something upsetting to me today.
It’s sort of my fault, but she didn’t had to say something absolutely cruel to me like she did. I was poking her during lunch to get her attention while she was eating ,and Miss Anezka suddenly says this to me “Stop it, I’m not a fan of you” with a mean tone.
What the hell is that suppose to mean??
I’ve never spoken shit about her nor said anything cruel to her. I actually had a lot of respect for that damn grim.
But the honest truth I rather just say my thoughts on her here.
She has said a lot of shit about Sam. She has no damn right to say crap about him, but I sadly don’t blame her. He dumped her.
She in general is just a gifted girl who is just superior with her words to others with her fancy jewelry, which I think is a waste of money. Her high intelligence is something that attracts peers around her. But have they not notice how she is just one of those people that just is “Unique” and the fact that she believes she has the same attitude as Marilyn Manson. Pretty much in my eyes she is just a typical teenager like us, with no specialty.
I don’t agree with what other people say. Got a problem with it? Now before you go running off to dear Anezka and start saying that I’m talking shit about her,you should learn by now that theirs a huge difference between talking shit and saying your true opinion and thoughts of someone. Because if I was to be talking shit about her I would have just started saying she’s a whore and start running my mouth about her and things I have known and heard from Sam. I’m not going to. I know better than to do that crap. I actually respect people. And this is my live journal and I can write whatever I would like, not what anyone wants. If you’re still going to complain to me about this entry then go fuck yourself. I don’t want to hear your words here on how rude I am. This is my journal which I write my thoughts. Perhaps the reason why she said that was because Antonio Lara (Tony) told her about his dramatic love life towards me.
If Anezka actually said that to me because of what happened between me and Tony ,than all I have to say is that she is just like all those fucking close-minded people who just listen to one side of a story and get against the other person. No, I don’t play that stupid crap.
I LISTEN to both stories and say my opinion to both.
Its funny, for the past few nights before I had a lot of dreams Of Anezka. I can’t figure them out….I guess it shall have to be a mystery.
Today we had another pep rally. I actually today participated with the crowd today.I wore some orange and brown makeup for the stupid school. When the time came to go to the gym I didn’t cheer at all.
I just hung out with Frank. He’s really cool to hang out with.
Its hard to find true friends now a days.Infact I dont think anyone has a true friend now a days.The only people I can count on are Mary,Jim,David,Frank,Didi,and Ashley.
I miss Noel.My big brother.He was always there for me,now he is with my exbf Edwin just killing themselves everynight.I missed them both.I wish everything was the same,but thats impossible cause everything has to change.
I got a freakin failures notice for Chemistry.I have a freakin D!!
I had a C but since they took off the + and - grades my grade got lower.F-U-C-K.
I have so much anger inside me right now.My chest is actually in pain with how much I want to bitch and hit on people.I feel like actually killing.-_-
For some strange odd reason every close person I talk to is leaving my path of life.
I can really careless because that’s how life is.
But that’s just my stubborn side. I no longer have Tony.
I guess It’s best for me not to have him. I need to be more independent and live my life more by myself. I cant have him always by my side. And it wouldn’t be a good friendship since he is only doing it because he loves me. But not having a guardian shall be hard, for I am lonely now.
But I’ll survive.
Leighton said a few rude words to me which didn’t bother me because I know the real me(“You’re an attention whore who seeks men attention). I’m no longer talking to him though.
He thinks just because he can tell me, I’m actually going to shut up and still be his friend? I don’t think so.
He can say his opinion but I’m not going to take it like a whore tied up to a leash.
Today Alyssa AKA Anezka said something upsetting to me today.
It’s sort of my fault, but she didn’t had to say something absolutely cruel to me like she did. I was poking her during lunch to get her attention while she was eating ,and Miss Anezka suddenly says this to me “Stop it, I’m not a fan of you” with a mean tone.
What the hell is that suppose to mean??
I’ve never spoken shit about her nor said anything cruel to her. I actually had a lot of respect for that damn grim.
But the honest truth I rather just say my thoughts on her here.
She has said a lot of shit about Sam. She has no damn right to say crap about him, but I sadly don’t blame her. He dumped her.
She in general is just a gifted girl who is just superior with her words to others with her fancy jewelry, which I think is a waste of money. Her high intelligence is something that attracts peers around her. But have they not notice how she is just one of those people that just is “Unique” and the fact that she believes she has the same attitude as Marilyn Manson. Pretty much in my eyes she is just a typical teenager like us, with no specialty.
I don’t agree with what other people say. Got a problem with it? Now before you go running off to dear Anezka and start saying that I’m talking shit about her,you should learn by now that theirs a huge difference between talking shit and saying your true opinion and thoughts of someone. Because if I was to be talking shit about her I would have just started saying she’s a whore and start running my mouth about her and things I have known and heard from Sam. I’m not going to. I know better than to do that crap. I actually respect people. And this is my live journal and I can write whatever I would like, not what anyone wants. If you’re still going to complain to me about this entry then go fuck yourself. I don’t want to hear your words here on how rude I am. This is my journal which I write my thoughts. Perhaps the reason why she said that was because Antonio Lara (Tony) told her about his dramatic love life towards me.
If Anezka actually said that to me because of what happened between me and Tony ,than all I have to say is that she is just like all those fucking close-minded people who just listen to one side of a story and get against the other person. No, I don’t play that stupid crap.
I LISTEN to both stories and say my opinion to both.
Its funny, for the past few nights before I had a lot of dreams Of Anezka. I can’t figure them out….I guess it shall have to be a mystery.
Today we had another pep rally. I actually today participated with the crowd today.I wore some orange and brown makeup for the stupid school. When the time came to go to the gym I didn’t cheer at all.
I just hung out with Frank. He’s really cool to hang out with.
Its hard to find true friends now a days.Infact I dont think anyone has a true friend now a days.The only people I can count on are Mary,Jim,David,Frank,Didi,and Ashley.
I miss Noel.My big brother.He was always there for me,now he is with my exbf Edwin just killing themselves everynight.I missed them both.I wish everything was the same,but thats impossible cause everything has to change.
I got a freakin failures notice for Chemistry.I have a freakin D!!
I had a C but since they took off the + and - grades my grade got lower.F-U-C-K.
I have so much anger inside me right now.My chest is actually in pain with how much I want to bitch and hit on people.I feel like actually killing.-_-