my immortal
things are not going well...im worried about things... i have so much to do and i just cant bring myself to do it...its just so much work that when i think about it i just wanna slit my wrists so i wont have to do it...its like lindsay said there are not many reasons to stay alive...im just so tired and i cant handle any of this shit...i need a job...i need to find a college and a major...i need to finish this year of school...and get through..a 10 page reasearch paper...a final project an essay test...a math quiz and test...4 finals...4 history projects and a theater project....why must my world always fall apart when i have so much to do...im just so tired and depressed...i just cant do this shit anymore...i cant even finish this entry because i have to work....fuck
I'm so tired of being here
supressed by all my childish fears
and if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'cause your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
and I held your hand through all of these years
but you still have me
all of me
you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
now I'm bound by the life you've left behind
your face it haunts
my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away
all the sanity in me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
but though you're still with me
I've been alone all along...
~evanessence
I'm so tired of being here
supressed by all my childish fears
and if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'cause your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
and I held your hand through all of these years
but you still have me
all of me
you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
now I'm bound by the life you've left behind
your face it haunts
my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away
all the sanity in me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
but though you're still with me
I've been alone all along...
~evanessence