Back that thang up....
Well my life is pretty boring so thats why I dont update this thing too often...and i'm not creative enough to write something up about what little does happen in my life. But anyways I want a bf.....no...I want Jake....I dunno...I want to be with someone....but not just anyone. You know what I mean? Ugh, i've been thinking about it more and more lately. Summer is here and I know its gonna be over before I know it...now is the time...but where is that guy i'm looking for?!?!
Lately it seems that a lot of guys from my past are coming back...guys that I havent talked to or even thought about in a while. Like Adam who I first started talking to last summer then I didnt think anything would happen and finally we started talking again and met a few weeks ago. Then this guy Joe calls me about 2 weeks ago...I used to talk to him last summer and I wanted to meet him but he wasnt ready. We hadnt talked in at least 10 months. But he's somewhat annoying and immature...so i'm not really interested...but now he seems more interested in me...ugh.
Then last week...and again last night...I had dreams about Jake...he is someone I met online last summer and we talked for a bit, then he got a bf and we havent talked since then. But i've sorta kept up to date on him through his online journals...which is weird I guess, kinda like a stalker? lol but I totally admire this guy and I think i've got some strong feelings for him. Having the dream just brings up all those feelings and thoughts of him. He is only 16 tho....it sucks liking younger guys. :\
Now for something juicy...yesterday I was driving along my merry way on the highway...windows all down and the radio turned up when my cell phone rings and guess who it is? He says "its Cooper". I had to put the windows up and turn the radio down because I didnt think I was hearing correctly. I said "Cooper?" He said "yeah, Cooper". For a half second I had to think who is Cooper? lol but only because we havent talked in nearly 2 years and I havent really thought much about him at least for the past year. Cooper is my ex-bf and really the only guy I was ever in a long term relationship with. It was over the summer of 2002 and it lasted 5 months...6 if you count the month we knew each other online and also talked on the phone. Anyhow..if I had this journal back when I was dating him there would be plenty of reading to do...plenty. So he calls me yesterday after deciding not to talk to me shortly after our mutual breakup. He says he doesnt even remember why but he just felt like getting in touch and resolving some stuff between us. So we talked for a bit then he hadda go and we made plans to talk again last night, which we did. I started having feelings for him again and realizing that I do miss him...but he hasnt really changed and I dont think i'd wanna be involved with him again and put myself through more of the stress and hurt that came from our relationship. It was beautiful while it lasted and i'll always treasure those memories...but we arent right for each other. Having that dream last night about Jake couldnt have come at a better time because it makes me realize that there are awsome guys out there...I just need to find me one because thats what I really want...a dream guy like Jake.
Sooo sexy Jake
Jake..adorable smile
Cooper cute
Cooper...again
Yay..I taught myself how to put images in my entries! :)
Lately it seems that a lot of guys from my past are coming back...guys that I havent talked to or even thought about in a while. Like Adam who I first started talking to last summer then I didnt think anything would happen and finally we started talking again and met a few weeks ago. Then this guy Joe calls me about 2 weeks ago...I used to talk to him last summer and I wanted to meet him but he wasnt ready. We hadnt talked in at least 10 months. But he's somewhat annoying and immature...so i'm not really interested...but now he seems more interested in me...ugh.
Then last week...and again last night...I had dreams about Jake...he is someone I met online last summer and we talked for a bit, then he got a bf and we havent talked since then. But i've sorta kept up to date on him through his online journals...which is weird I guess, kinda like a stalker? lol but I totally admire this guy and I think i've got some strong feelings for him. Having the dream just brings up all those feelings and thoughts of him. He is only 16 tho....it sucks liking younger guys. :\
Now for something juicy...yesterday I was driving along my merry way on the highway...windows all down and the radio turned up when my cell phone rings and guess who it is? He says "its Cooper". I had to put the windows up and turn the radio down because I didnt think I was hearing correctly. I said "Cooper?" He said "yeah, Cooper". For a half second I had to think who is Cooper? lol but only because we havent talked in nearly 2 years and I havent really thought much about him at least for the past year. Cooper is my ex-bf and really the only guy I was ever in a long term relationship with. It was over the summer of 2002 and it lasted 5 months...6 if you count the month we knew each other online and also talked on the phone. Anyhow..if I had this journal back when I was dating him there would be plenty of reading to do...plenty. So he calls me yesterday after deciding not to talk to me shortly after our mutual breakup. He says he doesnt even remember why but he just felt like getting in touch and resolving some stuff between us. So we talked for a bit then he hadda go and we made plans to talk again last night, which we did. I started having feelings for him again and realizing that I do miss him...but he hasnt really changed and I dont think i'd wanna be involved with him again and put myself through more of the stress and hurt that came from our relationship. It was beautiful while it lasted and i'll always treasure those memories...but we arent right for each other. Having that dream last night about Jake couldnt have come at a better time because it makes me realize that there are awsome guys out there...I just need to find me one because thats what I really want...a dream guy like Jake.
Sooo sexy Jake
Jake..adorable smile
Cooper cute
Cooper...again
Yay..I taught myself how to put images in my entries! :)