whats in my basement?

[basements]

politics make me uncomfortable. people are always telling me what to think. you are cool if you believe what they want you to believe and you are insensitive and stupid if you believe something contrary. either way, i dont fucking care, but i dont like how they are treating people who carry different beliefs with them ... they might as well just go and fight about it.

is the reason that people in america find it so hard to have faith that we have a capitalistic system that runs how we live our lives? does capitalism reflect faith? i dont think so. does that make it bad? no. what makes it bad is when our lives are consumed by that way of life.

i friend of mine just came back from spending 5 weeks in japan and told me that the number one cause of death among college aged people is suicide. he also said that, in japan, it is considered honorable to not focus on the after-life and just do your job and be successful (generally speaking, of course). are the two tied together?

if i cheat on my wife, then i have been unfaithful. so is faith being married to something? staying with it, for better or worse? staying with it even when you arent getting everything you feel you deserve?

why am i so convinced that i deserve so much?
why dont i love people as much as i should today?
are the two tied together?