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I got to hold the baby today. He is so adorable, he dosen't look like an old man at all. He is so tiny alittle over 3 lbs. I really want to have a family, my maternal clock is ticking.
I'm really scared about school. I'm pretty confident I could cast someone so their gait would be corrected in a brace, but if I can't pass chemistry theres no way theyre going to give me a degree to learn how to make braces. Why do I need to learn the other stuff? I'm not good at that, or math. I do well in public speaking and in English class. I love writing and analyzing things especially baseball. I don't know how available a baseball writing job would be, it's not like I could be a sports writer because I don't understand, well any other sports. It's like academics are trying to lead me in a different direction than what I want to do with my life, although as much as I'd like to help people walk, family first. I want a family I think that's the most important thing you can do.
I feel so lost right now. I don't even know what to be happy about, I know theres lots but for once I just don't want to chase happiness, I just want it to say hello, I'm right here. suprise! I hate paying attention to numbers, they either fly or they crawl. It's like a rollercoaster up down, and damn scary. Jesus I need quite a number done right now.
I'm really scared about school. I'm pretty confident I could cast someone so their gait would be corrected in a brace, but if I can't pass chemistry theres no way theyre going to give me a degree to learn how to make braces. Why do I need to learn the other stuff? I'm not good at that, or math. I do well in public speaking and in English class. I love writing and analyzing things especially baseball. I don't know how available a baseball writing job would be, it's not like I could be a sports writer because I don't understand, well any other sports. It's like academics are trying to lead me in a different direction than what I want to do with my life, although as much as I'd like to help people walk, family first. I want a family I think that's the most important thing you can do.
I feel so lost right now. I don't even know what to be happy about, I know theres lots but for once I just don't want to chase happiness, I just want it to say hello, I'm right here. suprise! I hate paying attention to numbers, they either fly or they crawl. It's like a rollercoaster up down, and damn scary. Jesus I need quite a number done right now.