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Im so speachless right now. Nothing could have ever prepared me to how i am feeling right now. Some part of me feels just mad but i have no right to be, it was my fault, i really did bring all this upon myself, gosh im so heartbroken. There was always only one way i knew to ever get over someone is be an asshole, but i just cant do that with all the past history goin on. I want to call her, see her or atleast talk to her..but i know it jus cant happen this moment, it would hurt way to much, even more then what i am right now without even seeing her and atleast hearing her voice just any of those two would be nice. I had it good, but i guess shit happens for a reason. This is one of the hardest things to deal with, my freinds have been right there with me trying to help me through this, when i couldnt even talk, i dont kno if it was pain or tears that was holding me back(thanks kelly). I wana tell you a million things right now but you said its too late. Your going to move on, i guess ill eventually have to, you cant mope forever,its hard when everything you see or hear somehow will remind me of *you* but there is lawyas going to be those pictures or your favortie band that will come on and it will always remind me of you.I dont want to picture you with anyone else, but it will eventually come. I feel liek hteres a big hole inside of me that which u filled but i dunno, im done. Im not certain of any thing anymore but one thing i am certain of..i loved her..goodbye..