Lazy day, emotions down, it's all crap...
So, school finally started last week. I found out I was sadly mistaken when I'd thought the summer semester would be, dunno, not as difficult as the first one. I have already lots of stuff to do and we've just had introductory lessons so far! God, I'm not sure I'll manage all that shit. I could rant about this for hours. Next time, perhaps.
Also, I have till like Tuesday to decide if I want to apply for Erasmus for the next summer semester. I'd be going to Spain somewhere, if they chose me. But I'm not really sure if I want to apply or not, let alone go anywhere.
Anyways, since the school started, my social life kinda picked up too, so I've been going out more than usually. However, for me that means like twice or three times a week. But I like my peace and quiet too, so that's more than enough, thank you very much. What's starting to bother me though is that an alarmingly increasing number of people is starting to ask me if I had/have a boyfriend. When it was my grandmother and family only, I could brush it off, 'cause that's the topic all relatives are always interested in. But now it's my friends asking too all the time and it's starting to be rather uncomfortable. Well, I'll be 20 in a month or so (omg!) and I've never been in any relationship. I understand that for 'normal' people it's something they can't possibly comprehend, but I'm just not interested. The truth is, though, that even if I was interested, nothing would change. Anyhow, I'm starting to stir away from any relationships discussions, 'cause I know what it'll inevitably lead to, and I'm not sure I can take it any longer.
On a totally unrelated topic, I've done something not very nice to Marla today and she's been behaving very strangely since then. I think she's afraid of me too. And I feel incredibly guilty, as I should :(
So, not a very good day today. I think I'm going to write my first Holmes fic ever, 'cause it'd be nice to make somebody else suffer. Angst ensues.
Also, I have till like Tuesday to decide if I want to apply for Erasmus for the next summer semester. I'd be going to Spain somewhere, if they chose me. But I'm not really sure if I want to apply or not, let alone go anywhere.
Anyways, since the school started, my social life kinda picked up too, so I've been going out more than usually. However, for me that means like twice or three times a week. But I like my peace and quiet too, so that's more than enough, thank you very much. What's starting to bother me though is that an alarmingly increasing number of people is starting to ask me if I had/have a boyfriend. When it was my grandmother and family only, I could brush it off, 'cause that's the topic all relatives are always interested in. But now it's my friends asking too all the time and it's starting to be rather uncomfortable. Well, I'll be 20 in a month or so (omg!) and I've never been in any relationship. I understand that for 'normal' people it's something they can't possibly comprehend, but I'm just not interested. The truth is, though, that even if I was interested, nothing would change. Anyhow, I'm starting to stir away from any relationships discussions, 'cause I know what it'll inevitably lead to, and I'm not sure I can take it any longer.
On a totally unrelated topic, I've done something not very nice to Marla today and she's been behaving very strangely since then. I think she's afraid of me too. And I feel incredibly guilty, as I should :(
So, not a very good day today. I think I'm going to write my first Holmes fic ever, 'cause it'd be nice to make somebody else suffer. Angst ensues.