It gets;
http://bartopgirl.livejournal.com/14865.html
If you have a quick read of one of past entries,
&have been reading my lj,
you would have noticed I have not accomplished much on my
To-Do List.
):
The only thing I did was changing ALL my passwords,
&change the layout on MySpace
which I still have more do to up.
Tonight I want to do up My New Memory Box.
Frankly I am tired of carrying Old Memories.
I need to F'ing chuck them somewhere.
&Do abit of My Life Book
Where I can bitch&whine about Anyone& Everyone,
&You won't even know (;
I had a tiring day ):
I hate reliefing afternoon sessions,
But I am doing for the $$$.
I totally forgot that next week is March Holidays,
so I didn't put up my schedule at Fish.
(But I got loads to do anyways)
I miss Fish.
&I don't know when will I be ready to leave that place.
I have seen too many people leave.
I hate this.
I have a jam packed Saturday afternoon,
&plus I am working.
I want to spend my night with My Favourite Boys ):
Which reminds me,
I want to go Clubbing very soon.
(;
St James anyone?
I am rambling too much,
but I have been thinking alot these days.
&I want more of days like this:
"Thank you Glennda for the Awesome Day.
You made me think what I want to do.
Thanks for triggering the thought in me.
I think I will make it.
I think We will make it.
Meanwhile, let's meet more often.
Like every weeeeeeek!"
<3
I don't give a damn if you think this part is directed to you. Frankly I am tired of thinking of what happened to US. What happened to the times I could count on you? What happened to those goddamn days where I can be sure that you had my back? Now all I am doing is protecting my back away from your knife! I detest you, I just wish I had the guts to tell or show you. Why am I being a sensitive Bitch and try to hide everything from you? I know we all did wrong. I guess I did too much trusting on you. People come up to tell me how wonderful you are. If only they knew, if only they knew how you work. I knw you long enough to see how you can screw up with someone. Nope Bitch, I won't let you ruin anymore of me. I won't. I am going to keep my distant as much as possible. &Please, please don't think so highly of yourself. I hate myself for letting you get the Best of me. But rememeber, 'What's broken cannot be fixed. &What's fixed will never be the same again.'
&For that, I officially do not love you, My Ex Friend.
I want it to stop.
I want it all to stop.
Cupcake, where are you?
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