I don't look like that anymore
How long has it been? At least year I think. A large part of me desperately misses the creative process of writing, as well as getting to see what others are thinking and doing. I've made so many friends on forums such as this, which just has not been able to happen with Facebook. One can't get to know what someone else is thinking through only vacation pics and 2-sentence status updates.
So how am I feeling now? It's hard to say, I think that at this point I've been able to accept that my life in New Zealand is very much over, and that the future will be somewhere else. Well at least I think so. Now that we've been in Australia for a while my opinion has settled on that we're here because of necessity, but not choice. And no matter how much I try, this is just not where I want to be. Unfortunately there's just no short-term options to move.
However work-wise things have been good, and I think will give us the opportunity to look elsewhere in the next year or so. All I feel here is longing for somewhere else, even if I don't know where somewhere else really is. It's not a feeling I enjoy, but one I've had to live with for a while now. I think that's a major reason why I don't want to write as much, I'm trying to ignore the truth.
So how am I feeling now? It's hard to say, I think that at this point I've been able to accept that my life in New Zealand is very much over, and that the future will be somewhere else. Well at least I think so. Now that we've been in Australia for a while my opinion has settled on that we're here because of necessity, but not choice. And no matter how much I try, this is just not where I want to be. Unfortunately there's just no short-term options to move.
However work-wise things have been good, and I think will give us the opportunity to look elsewhere in the next year or so. All I feel here is longing for somewhere else, even if I don't know where somewhere else really is. It's not a feeling I enjoy, but one I've had to live with for a while now. I think that's a major reason why I don't want to write as much, I'm trying to ignore the truth.