I'll be coming back to you Darlene
Let's see. i was told to update. i don't know why i like these journal things cuz i hate writing. so today i woke up and went to visit my great aunt. i feel bad for her. my mom and i helped her rearrange her clothes becuase she had to move to another room. i then went tanning with gina but the girl decided to put me in a weird bed so i'm gonna go back tomorrow becuase i think i got jipped on time. i then went to dance but ms. susan showed up to tell us she left a message on my answering machine and she had to pick up her husband so we weren't going to have class today. so i brought gina home and went to jennys to yearbook. the tzafon yearbook is going to be a pain in the ass. i then went home for bagles!!! i was so happy to eat it. then taylor and i went to wegmans. that was SO amusing. we wanted to buy 1 caramel square thing but that wouldnt' weigh on the scale so we went for two and that wouldn't go either so we had to get three and we just stuck them to the lable. the checkout girl said she'd seen that before. we were sad. we then found out the boys will not be getting back till thursday. thats a pain. so then we got gina and went to friendlys
and now here i am. talking to elijah :) he thought my last entry was about him. it was lol i dunno just since we stared talking again i started thinking. and when i think nothing good comes of it. i read some old conversations we had had. like the first two after encamptment. that was kinda depressing. its just so far back in time. in the times where i was still best friends/spoke with my wheels friends every day. it was a very nice time in my life. as is now. just thinking about what's going on. like what will i do when josh leaves? ah so many thoughts about that. im not even going to get into it. but i do feel really bad becuase last night i was causing a fight between josh and i but i was the one making him be the jerk. im such a bitch sometimes and i don't know why. am i trying to push him away so it won't hurt as bad in the end? i dunno. gina asked me a very interesting question the other day when we were chatting. it got me thinking even more. hm..
ok i think i'm goign to go make elijah not be depressed and watch third watch. me and my silly dreams of being a grown up.
and now here i am. talking to elijah :) he thought my last entry was about him. it was lol i dunno just since we stared talking again i started thinking. and when i think nothing good comes of it. i read some old conversations we had had. like the first two after encamptment. that was kinda depressing. its just so far back in time. in the times where i was still best friends/spoke with my wheels friends every day. it was a very nice time in my life. as is now. just thinking about what's going on. like what will i do when josh leaves? ah so many thoughts about that. im not even going to get into it. but i do feel really bad becuase last night i was causing a fight between josh and i but i was the one making him be the jerk. im such a bitch sometimes and i don't know why. am i trying to push him away so it won't hurt as bad in the end? i dunno. gina asked me a very interesting question the other day when we were chatting. it got me thinking even more. hm..
ok i think i'm goign to go make elijah not be depressed and watch third watch. me and my silly dreams of being a grown up.