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the whole livejournal craze has died out, methinks. no one does this anymore.
but that's okay. i've sworn i'd do this tonight. maybe i little thought-detachment would be a good thing.
so here goes what is possibly a very long update:
me and chris have pretty much spent the whole summer together. it's been great. but people don't really seem to get the fact that i want to take advantage of every second i can spend with him. just because i don't talk about it constantly doesn't mean it doesn't suck when he's away at school. it kinda hurts when you're in a different city than your boyfriend who also happens to be your best friend. don't get me wrong, it's totally worth it. but come on. you wanna be a little more understanding??
i've been in need of a job very badly this summer. i finally have a job interview on monday at cards and cones. i'm excited, because sarah and jenny work there. and jenny says it's kind of fun. so maybe i won't want to throw things while i'm at work there, like i did at giant.
i've realized that more and more lately, there's been this ridiculous obsession in teenage girls with weight. describing yourself as 'tiny' or saying you admired adriana lima's abs, or whatever it is. why can't you be 'funny' and admire the hilarious light that stephen colbert looks at politics in? it's sick, actually. if you get to hear enough of it, even without actually paying attention, it starts to infest you. i hate it. my theory on this:
everyone's body is different. as long as you are healthy, your body won't be horribly ugly. you don't need to be a twig. just be healthy, and that's all that matters. being a size 2 is pointless if you're starving yourself to do it. you may think you look better, but you're not better off.
i'm trying to figure out what i want to do after school(as in college). i dropped the ideas of fashion marketing and culinary arts for the simple reason that, while i did enjoy those things, they were more just hobbies. i want something of more substance. i'm pretty sure i'll be going to mary washington for a number of reasons, and they have a wide range of things i can go into.
one of my serious considerations has been joining the Peace Corps. there are many things i would love to do that they offer. and it's my kind of thing... traveling, helping people, experiencing new things.
the only downside to this, as i've been made aware, is the fact that because the Peace Corps is government-run, it's incredibly bureaucratic. i would rather volunteer for some Christian organization that specializes in a certain thing...but i have yet to research that.
but this also presents the thought of: "what then?". i wouldn't do this for my whole life. probably no more than a year or two...i eventually want to settle down and have a family. ideally i want to be a mother. but that's a looong way off.
i'm having a slight struggle with my faith. i sort of fell away lately, but now i'm beginning to regain ground that i'd lost. i've realized that the basic things have to be figured out on your own before it's all expounded on. you've got to have a foundation, which i'm working on.
i've got a lot on my mind, but nothing i can't bear.
i can't wait to graduate and be out of the house. i imagine it's quite a liberating feeling. LESS THAN ONE YEAR!
in a few weeks i'm going back down to new orleans to work. it'll be a nice break from the petty stafford drama.
but that's okay. i've sworn i'd do this tonight. maybe i little thought-detachment would be a good thing.
so here goes what is possibly a very long update:
me and chris have pretty much spent the whole summer together. it's been great. but people don't really seem to get the fact that i want to take advantage of every second i can spend with him. just because i don't talk about it constantly doesn't mean it doesn't suck when he's away at school. it kinda hurts when you're in a different city than your boyfriend who also happens to be your best friend. don't get me wrong, it's totally worth it. but come on. you wanna be a little more understanding??
i've been in need of a job very badly this summer. i finally have a job interview on monday at cards and cones. i'm excited, because sarah and jenny work there. and jenny says it's kind of fun. so maybe i won't want to throw things while i'm at work there, like i did at giant.
i've realized that more and more lately, there's been this ridiculous obsession in teenage girls with weight. describing yourself as 'tiny' or saying you admired adriana lima's abs, or whatever it is. why can't you be 'funny' and admire the hilarious light that stephen colbert looks at politics in? it's sick, actually. if you get to hear enough of it, even without actually paying attention, it starts to infest you. i hate it. my theory on this:
everyone's body is different. as long as you are healthy, your body won't be horribly ugly. you don't need to be a twig. just be healthy, and that's all that matters. being a size 2 is pointless if you're starving yourself to do it. you may think you look better, but you're not better off.
i'm trying to figure out what i want to do after school(as in college). i dropped the ideas of fashion marketing and culinary arts for the simple reason that, while i did enjoy those things, they were more just hobbies. i want something of more substance. i'm pretty sure i'll be going to mary washington for a number of reasons, and they have a wide range of things i can go into.
one of my serious considerations has been joining the Peace Corps. there are many things i would love to do that they offer. and it's my kind of thing... traveling, helping people, experiencing new things.
the only downside to this, as i've been made aware, is the fact that because the Peace Corps is government-run, it's incredibly bureaucratic. i would rather volunteer for some Christian organization that specializes in a certain thing...but i have yet to research that.
but this also presents the thought of: "what then?". i wouldn't do this for my whole life. probably no more than a year or two...i eventually want to settle down and have a family. ideally i want to be a mother. but that's a looong way off.
i'm having a slight struggle with my faith. i sort of fell away lately, but now i'm beginning to regain ground that i'd lost. i've realized that the basic things have to be figured out on your own before it's all expounded on. you've got to have a foundation, which i'm working on.
i've got a lot on my mind, but nothing i can't bear.
i can't wait to graduate and be out of the house. i imagine it's quite a liberating feeling. LESS THAN ONE YEAR!
in a few weeks i'm going back down to new orleans to work. it'll be a nice break from the petty stafford drama.