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ever come to the realization that over half the shit that makes up your LIFE sucks in one way or another?
this may be end up being profane. i don't know yet, but don't be surprised if it does. and don't think i usually talk that way.
but HOLY CRAP! i can't think of one great thing in my life that doesn't have a downside! everything has a catch, everything has a sucky part. and all i can do right now is sit here and tell myself that i just have to get through this, and everything will be okay. it will be alright in a few months, right? I DON'T KNOW if it will be or not, because either way there's shit after that that'll be looming over my head. and if you think i'm being overly sensitive, screw you, because i've had to deal with bullshit ever since i moved to virginia. especially in the last 5 months. it'll always be in one form or another, and it never fucking stops!!!
can things just NOT SUCK for a while??
i'm just feeling awfully pessimistic...
stuff hurts. a lot. and it's hard to get over when it doesn't stop hurting, you know?
....
...okay... i've calmed down a little.
maybe i just have to push on through this. i know i can do it, but i just want a break from having to constantly try. unfortunately for me, that doesn't come for 3 and a half months. so until then, all i can do is wait for it.
maybe i'll just think about the future now.
ten countries i will visit in my lifetime.(hopefully before 30)
1.Brazil
2.France
3.Egypt
4.Portugal
5.India
6.Greece
7.Russia
8.Peru
9.Kenya
10.Singapore, again. it was just so nice, i gotta go back!
five thing i want to do before i die
1.be multi-lingual (i'm about to start working on Portuguese, and i've pretty much got French under my belt. Russian or Romanian would be next.)
2.get married and have kids
3.return to japan and CONQUER MOUNT FUJI!!!(this time, without crying at all :D)
4.see the northern lights
5.have my own fashion line
well, i feel better already.
this may be end up being profane. i don't know yet, but don't be surprised if it does. and don't think i usually talk that way.
but HOLY CRAP! i can't think of one great thing in my life that doesn't have a downside! everything has a catch, everything has a sucky part. and all i can do right now is sit here and tell myself that i just have to get through this, and everything will be okay. it will be alright in a few months, right? I DON'T KNOW if it will be or not, because either way there's shit after that that'll be looming over my head. and if you think i'm being overly sensitive, screw you, because i've had to deal with bullshit ever since i moved to virginia. especially in the last 5 months. it'll always be in one form or another, and it never fucking stops!!!
can things just NOT SUCK for a while??
i'm just feeling awfully pessimistic...
stuff hurts. a lot. and it's hard to get over when it doesn't stop hurting, you know?
....
...okay... i've calmed down a little.
maybe i just have to push on through this. i know i can do it, but i just want a break from having to constantly try. unfortunately for me, that doesn't come for 3 and a half months. so until then, all i can do is wait for it.
maybe i'll just think about the future now.
ten countries i will visit in my lifetime.(hopefully before 30)
1.Brazil
2.France
3.Egypt
4.Portugal
5.India
6.Greece
7.Russia
8.Peru
9.Kenya
10.Singapore, again. it was just so nice, i gotta go back!
five thing i want to do before i die
1.be multi-lingual (i'm about to start working on Portuguese, and i've pretty much got French under my belt. Russian or Romanian would be next.)
2.get married and have kids
3.return to japan and CONQUER MOUNT FUJI!!!(this time, without crying at all :D)
4.see the northern lights
5.have my own fashion line
well, i feel better already.