Ever feel like somethings just not meant to be?
I'm beginning to wonder about this damned HB. You see, you need to have a conditioning schedule for it. Not a plan that you just made up, but a real, done, schedule. There is just one issue... I HAVE NO FREAKING HORSE
And yet somehow I have to have one conditioned in 8 weeks for the HB. Great. Just. Great. I talked to my friend briefly about half leasing her horse and conditioning him with her help, but lets face it, thats crazy. I'm friends with her, I'd like to STAY friends. -sigh-
First the issues with the C2, and now the HB. Pony Club at the upper levels was not made to be done without a horse. Maybe I truely am done with PC. I can't see a way out of this one - not short of completely inventing a horse and a conditioning schedule, and praying I get away with it. I don't want to do that. How insanely dishonest. But I don't want to end as a C2... I want my C3, but that clearly is not going to happen. I thought the HB was doable, but it turns out that it too is not. God. Somedays I hate that I ever got invested in something. Actually, lately, most days I've hated being invested in PC. It just seems to be causing a lot more trouble and pain than it ever did before.
Whats so frustrating is, as usual, I've got nobody to talk to about it. Which I guess is fair, not everybody can be like me - staying up or avoiding work that needs to be done in order to help somebody else. I wish I could hold everybody to that standard but I realise thats unrealistic. And I can't expect anybody to care about my problems... I just... It would make it easier to deal with. -sigh-
I just want everything to work out. In the end, I want to be happy with what I've done. Why does that seem to be so much to ask?
And yet somehow I have to have one conditioned in 8 weeks for the HB. Great. Just. Great. I talked to my friend briefly about half leasing her horse and conditioning him with her help, but lets face it, thats crazy. I'm friends with her, I'd like to STAY friends. -sigh-
First the issues with the C2, and now the HB. Pony Club at the upper levels was not made to be done without a horse. Maybe I truely am done with PC. I can't see a way out of this one - not short of completely inventing a horse and a conditioning schedule, and praying I get away with it. I don't want to do that. How insanely dishonest. But I don't want to end as a C2... I want my C3, but that clearly is not going to happen. I thought the HB was doable, but it turns out that it too is not. God. Somedays I hate that I ever got invested in something. Actually, lately, most days I've hated being invested in PC. It just seems to be causing a lot more trouble and pain than it ever did before.
Whats so frustrating is, as usual, I've got nobody to talk to about it. Which I guess is fair, not everybody can be like me - staying up or avoiding work that needs to be done in order to help somebody else. I wish I could hold everybody to that standard but I realise thats unrealistic. And I can't expect anybody to care about my problems... I just... It would make it easier to deal with. -sigh-
I just want everything to work out. In the end, I want to be happy with what I've done. Why does that seem to be so much to ask?