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I Hate the people that hate everybody, I hate that I used to be like that, I hate that I still kinda am. But now it’s more a hatred of the world as a whole, and the fucked up things we do to each other. But I mean just being rude to anyone and everyone, picking apart their flaws, magnifying them and exposing it to others. That blatant projection of self insecurity, that’s what bothers me. The irony of the fact that the only reason I have those insecurities is because of fear of other assholes, such as myself,not liking me isn’t lost on me. Now that I’m aware of it I should stop being such a bitch (I know I said I was over it- I lied) Every “I hate you” is really directed torwards me. Every insulting word or thought might as well be said in front of a mirror. I’m eight years old again and they’re rubber I’m glue.
I’m probably not even making sense, this really is all ED related (but then again, what isn’t?) Even though I haven’t once mentioned foodcaloriesscalesmeaninglessgoalweightsfastsdailyintake,etc. I didn’t used to be like this.