ramble and rant
Work is ridiculous and stupid and I'm SO over it.
I can't even get a hold of my boss to confirm when my last day is - as far as I'm concerned, it's Sunday.. but it was thrown out there that I could do a couple extra days if they were stuck.. and he hasn't approached me yet whether or not he needs me or not... Alison wants me to, but now it's already Wednesday it's a little late notice and I really just want to get started on the packing! Seriously, you can't say on my 3rd last day "oh, can you do an extra few days??" Urgh.
Nobody is hired to replace me yet. I haven't even seen or heard any interviews yet either. I feel bad for everyone else who will have to work every day straight until someone is hired. That sucks. I know what it's like.. and I'm glad I"m not doing it, but I feel of course partially responsible for the sucky situation.
I haven't been to the gym in 2 weeks. I just can't get motivated. I was meant to tell them to end my payments as next payment will be my last one (i think due to my laziness, i'll be stuck for an extra repayment accidentally oops).. The last few days I've been getting really annoyed at myself for not going, but putting that into action just doesn't seem to happen. I've been ultra lazy, doing online shit, and sleeping a bit extra, cuz so much is on my mind. And, i KNOW going to the gym would actually help relieve my stress, but I can't just get myself quite there.
Kim has now joined my gym (a week before I go, boo-urns!) so we are going tomorrow night together. That's what I needed, definitely, right now. A push. I'm going to be extra lame since I haven't been in ages, but maybe a good uphill run is what I need!
Um, what else is there to complain about?
I managed to give myself the most ugly blister sore on the outside of my left foot. My shoes on Sunday somehow did it without me knowing (I just remember at 10pm going "omg I'm bleeding?" but didn't feel anything!) and now it's all weird and scabby and very tender. It's also huge.
Can't wait to move out and not live in a place with a dirty bathroom and kitchen. It's DRIVING ME NUTS. I crack it every.single.day... I can't stand it anymore... I mean, I love this house and the people in it... but nobody honestly can see the mould in the shower?? Or all the scraps and crumbs in the kitchen?? URGH, it's disgusting. I hate it and i'ts embarrassing to have guests over. There are people here who just get up and plonk on the couch for 3 hours before needing to go to work, eat, and leave. I get up and have to clean for 20 minutes before I can even get cooking.. and that's so incredibly frustrating I can't even describe it.
Can't wait to have my own place. MY OWN PLACE.
For someone who had nothing to write about, this was a long entry.
It's proving to be a very tough week and I"m really anxious and stressy... trying to avoid thinking about everything because I can't fathom moving again (albeit the last time)... Work is keeping me in limbo, I want to know a final date, so that's contributing.. and my fat lazy butt is getting me down - completely my own doing, and not helping this grey mood.
Yeah that's it.
Hello to my new flisters... sorry for the bad negative posts, you caught me at a very transitionary point in the year!! :)