worst night ever
soo no one reads these anymore so im just gonna write everything to make me feel better. lately ive been feelin like crap. school sucks, everything sucks i guess u can say ive been a little depressed but i would never admit it to anyone. so yesterday was zacharys brothers wedding and ive been excited bout it. i knew that it would be either like really fun or sooo terrible. and it was not really fun so i u can guess wat it was. lets start off... ok so i ride with james to the wedding and we get there and zacharys mom is intruducing me as zacks girlfriend, which we arent by the way. that didnt bug me so bad, but then i go sit down with zack and hes talkin to this girl, ashley whom i just assume that hes related to and stuff. so im not caring, then like we are all walking around(zack,me, james,ashley).they keep like walking off and leavin me and james to ourselves and im justlike okkk... thats soo rude. then james and zack leave us so im talkin to her and the bad thing is that i liked her. and i know that she liked him and stuff..zak and ashley left us again. then i asked james why they left us and he said ill tell u later. so i was like w/e. then james is makin all these jokes how zacks gonna spend the night at suzettes every weekend and stuff. so i asked james to tell me now and he was like zack and ashley are gonna start datin in like two weeks, which james in known to over exagerate and stuff. so i was like why u say that and hes like they just are and hes just like why do u think she spent the night at suzettes. and im just like ok.... and like the whole night they were flirting and stuff, and like i totally was in outerspace the whole night and didnt feel like doing much of ne thing. all i wanted to do was just go home. i mean.. we arent dating i shouldnt care but we still are like we are dating. so w/e im bout to be done with all of this cause it just sucks. i want to not care but i just cant help it. i mean i dont no for sure that they have ne thing, which i dont think they do. but like wat james said still bugged me. but like i just dont want to do this ne more cause it sucks. and now thats all im gonna think bout. this isnt fun and i shouldnt hafta deal with this gay crap