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hi i would like to update again.
what do you want to know?
something is terribly wrong. terribly wrong. this is not the way i am supposed to be feeling. i never used to feel this way. i just plain don't understand why he won't send me an e-mail. i deserve to hear from him. everything is topsyturvy. like in that song. TOP SEE TURR VEE! he has every right to be mad at me. but not to be mad at me and avoiding me. no you have no right to avoid me. it makes me hurt. i know you care somewhere deep down inside. i know i haven't been made a fool of. i know that all this time you weren't pretending. you love me. you know you love me joshua. we're just going through a rough patch. that's what's supposed to happen, cuz we're human. but you love me and i promise you i can be beautiful. i can be everything you want me to be. and i will be. but you cannot not talk to me. it's against the rules. you're breaking the rules.
lala
lala
let's talk this over
it's not like we're dead
what do you want to know?
something is terribly wrong. terribly wrong. this is not the way i am supposed to be feeling. i never used to feel this way. i just plain don't understand why he won't send me an e-mail. i deserve to hear from him. everything is topsyturvy. like in that song. TOP SEE TURR VEE! he has every right to be mad at me. but not to be mad at me and avoiding me. no you have no right to avoid me. it makes me hurt. i know you care somewhere deep down inside. i know i haven't been made a fool of. i know that all this time you weren't pretending. you love me. you know you love me joshua. we're just going through a rough patch. that's what's supposed to happen, cuz we're human. but you love me and i promise you i can be beautiful. i can be everything you want me to be. and i will be. but you cannot not talk to me. it's against the rules. you're breaking the rules.
lala
lala
let's talk this over
it's not like we're dead