The Hardest Part

[bardingtide]

Sorry if this turns into a long post of rambly pointlessness. I just need to get it out of my system and that's what a journal is supposed to be for isn't it?

I also apologise if this end up sounding like a newspaper column/ an editorial in the I. I am hoping to study journalism at uni so I'm using that as my excuse.

Comments

[lys_aranel]

You know I'm absolutely horrible at knowing what to say.

You also know that whatever idiotic words come out of my mouth, it all boils down to "I love you, little brother".

So, that said, way to go, facing the razor, and remember that however glib it sounds, this too shall pass. "'For I know the plans I have for you', sayeth the Lord, 'Plans to prosper you, and not to harm you. Plans to give you a hope and a future.'"
(I think I got that right...)

[bardingtide]

(You got it exactly right)

Thanks Big Sis. Love you too

*hugs*

<3

[strangledduck]

That is... hard. And, frankly, it sucks; I'm sorry. But, kudos, you're a brave lad. This, too, will pass, and you'll still be awesome. :)

[bardingtide]

Thanks.

Means a lot :)

[the_willows]

Dude. *hugs into infinity*

I have to say, that the shadow of losing my hair had I had to have chemo, was the thing that worried me most. So I totally understand how this felt. And I would have done the same, even before I was told that I would only need radiotherapy and hormone suppressants, and not chemo, I had made up my mind that if I did need it, I would take control and lose my hair on my own terms.

I salute you taking control. Because this is a time when you feel you have no control, that things are done to you, happen to you, affect you, and that you can't escape them. So taking back control of what from the outside can seem something unimportant, is actually a pretty big fucking deal.

Grab every opportunity to make your own things happen. Don't compromise to make other people's lives easier. Question things, do things, grab every single opportunity to assert your will. This WILL get better, this WILL be worth it. Passivity needs to be shown the door; you have an amazing life still to lead. <33333

[bardingtide]

*hugs*

Thanks. You've helped a lot, you and the comm. More than you probably know.

And you're not rid of me yet :-)

[anonymous]

Well.

I can't do much more than feebly echo Lys. Of course I'm not your big sister, you being older than me (nyah!) but I do love you as if you were my brother. And...I'm crying, reading this. Oh, I wish I could say something supporting and strong, but the words just don't come when you really need them, do they?

I do care, though -- you know that. I'm proud of you for not being bitter even though you're hurt. And I will pray that God might illuminate your dark valley with his unconquerable light.

Stay strong. *hugs*

~Meriwen

[bardingtide]

Thanks Meri. Means a lot.

No they don't. But knowing you're there is enough.

*hugs*

[anonymous]

*snugs*
That's all I can do, I'm afraid, and hope it's enough. But I shall add to that keeping you in my prayers...I already have been.
I highly recommend some good Hillsongs during these times...Keeping yourself in the presence of God helps, as it keeps your mind on Him (not your circumstances) and allows His shalome (which encompasses healing, prosperity, and all around well being as well as peace of mind) and grace to flow freely through us.

Luv you! *leaves plate of giant snugs*

~Wrosie

[bardingtide]

*snugs*

*noms the snugs*

Thanks Wrosie

*heads off to find some Hillsong*