Let the world BURN!
I have been so ridiculously stressed out lately that I'm just feeling burnt out and zombified half the time. The other half, I feel like ripping peoples spines out through their throats. Ugh this year needs to end.
So I found out about a week back that my mom has breast cancer. She's already had one lumpectomy (which went well) but she's going to have to go in for another because the doctors weren't fully satisfied with the safe margin around the tumor. The doctors and everyone are all really positive about this, they said it's a very common type, it's not spreading further, and it has a 99% survival rate. At this point I'm more concerned with the Chemotherapy and the Radiation therapy my mom will have to take. That's some nasty nasty stuff.
In other news, certain people have been holding me at distance for a while now, and I'm just getting tired of it. I'm tired of being treated like a burden. I'm tired of friends telling me how to live my life because "that's the way it is". I'm feed up with the status quo, cause (to quote Dr. Horrible) "the Status is NOT Quo". Yes I know I'm an idealist and a dreamer, but why is following the herd automatically the right thing to do.
Some friends I'm not that close to are going through some complicated times and I'm really doing my best to stay out of it, as it's a can of worms I don't need. But then if I'm truly a friend, shouldn't I be willing to help sort things out? So far things aren't a mess yet, and I would like to keep it that way. This year is turning out to be the year of disappointment with friends. Honestly why do we all create such drama?
I've spent the last week feeling like I've gotten no rest. I've physically slept but it's been of no help. I just need one night of good sleep. I pray for it, as I pray for everyone, peace.
So I found out about a week back that my mom has breast cancer. She's already had one lumpectomy (which went well) but she's going to have to go in for another because the doctors weren't fully satisfied with the safe margin around the tumor. The doctors and everyone are all really positive about this, they said it's a very common type, it's not spreading further, and it has a 99% survival rate. At this point I'm more concerned with the Chemotherapy and the Radiation therapy my mom will have to take. That's some nasty nasty stuff.
In other news, certain people have been holding me at distance for a while now, and I'm just getting tired of it. I'm tired of being treated like a burden. I'm tired of friends telling me how to live my life because "that's the way it is". I'm feed up with the status quo, cause (to quote Dr. Horrible) "the Status is NOT Quo". Yes I know I'm an idealist and a dreamer, but why is following the herd automatically the right thing to do.
Some friends I'm not that close to are going through some complicated times and I'm really doing my best to stay out of it, as it's a can of worms I don't need. But then if I'm truly a friend, shouldn't I be willing to help sort things out? So far things aren't a mess yet, and I would like to keep it that way. This year is turning out to be the year of disappointment with friends. Honestly why do we all create such drama?
I've spent the last week feeling like I've gotten no rest. I've physically slept but it's been of no help. I just need one night of good sleep. I pray for it, as I pray for everyone, peace.