life sucks
hey ya.. well, i got a lot goin on right now.. i am in a fight with three important people.. one is my mom.. im sure you already know that we argue about everything.. well i had a soccer game last night.. we played st john, and we lost 2-0.. she was asking me when i got home what was wrong with me.. she said that i played better when i was in 7th grade.. im not sure what is wrong with me, but i just get so tired easy.. its weird.. i try, but sometimes i feel like i try for nothing bc even though the forwards (the people that are suppossed to score) try to score, they dont and always end up losin the ball so i just stop trying bc its useless.. so we just argued.. and then me and heidi are fightin.. she says that i choose "dick over chick".. meaning guys over girls.. she says that i change around guys and all i talk about is guys and blah blah blah.. its stupid.. what bothered me though is that she said she talked to my "friends" and everyone says that i have changed and im not a good listener and all kinds of stuff.. im not sure if she's just sayin that to make me mad, or if its true, but that kinda hurts.. oh well.. another person that i am fightin with is a guy that i really like.. i did something wrong this weekend, he got mad at me, we made up, and then i found out he did almost the same thing as me.. i dont wanna get into details or make it a big deal, but im really upset that we are arguin.. and i hate that our soccer teams loses every game.. we try, but we just make little mistakes that cost us goals.. our record is like 1-4-1.. it sucks losing.. especially when you have parents like mine that get so mad when you dont score.. im not even suppossed to score bc i play midfield and forwards are suppossed to score, but my parents want and expect me to.. all i can hear when i play is my mom, but mostly my dad, yelling at me from the bleachers.. "RUN BARBRA!! GET THE BALL!! STOP WATCHING IT GO BY YOU!! STAY ON YOUR FEET!!" oh well.. i just gotta try harder i guess.. well my birthday was a couple weeks ago.. i had an AWESOME day.. i got balloons from heidi, nichole, and miranda lamey.. i got a milky way bouquet from dad.. and i had like a million people tell me happy birthday.. they only knew bc i carried my balloons around school all day.. my party was that saturday.. that was lotso fun.. not as many people showed up as i expected, but it was fun with who showed.. jeff got me the simple plan cd, which i wanted so bad.. its freakin awesome.. i love it.. my older sis stacy got me the hilary duff cd that i wanted too but ive listened to it like once.. my other older sis hollis bought all the stuff for my party for my birthday.. she spent like 100 dollars so thats enough for me.. my mom was mad at me so she didnt go to my party but she got me a portable dvd player.. its pretty cool.. well today on the way to school on old fort bayou mrs. batia got rear-ended by a car that didnt see her stopped.. natasha and i stopped to see if she was ok.. there was a cop there and a lady that had just got her car towed away.. mrs batia needed a ride to the hospital bc her neck and back were hurtin.. so i was gonna give her one but then michelle misko's mom drove by and mrs batia stopped her and had her take her to the hospital.. but a lot of people drove by and saw me stopped and thought that i had gotten into a wreck.. so like 20 people asked me today if i was ok.. it was kinda funny.. it showed me who really cares about me.. but mrs batia is ok.. just sore.. all the sophmores had to take this PLAN test this morning.. its like a practice ACT thing and it was HARD!! i guessed on so many of them.. oh well.. im goin to go clean now.. isnt that the story of my life.. haha.. ill try to write back more.. bye!!