long time....
its been a long time since i have written......and alot has happened since that time. Ive acctually made up with jessi which is really good. Me and sarah and gina arnt really tight n e more. Believe me that definatly sucks because they were my bestfriends in the entire world. But its definatly true people grow apart. Im in high school and they graduated last year. W/e.. as tyler says..shit happens. HAHA.. I miss that kid. I rarely talk to tyler n e more. Ive made peace with tommy and im going to see him december 1st. Im really excited i really miss him and really love him still. Right before he left i sat in frount of sarahs house and i sat and cried in his arms. I was just overwelmed with sadness. I had no idea why. Maybe cause i still love him and always will. Its wierd. No matter how many guys come along i still think of him and its not the same. I dont know how to put these feeling into words. But i have to admit. I am together with this other guy. I think that it will be go to try something new. Because me and "fucktard" will never ever be together again. So i need to move on and i think that me and jason is a new step. The problem with that is that he doesnt want commitment. Which really makes things more complicated and frustrating. But i just have to chill and just go with things. Im pretty sure that things will eventually work out. Just because i hate the way things are right now doesnt mean that they arnt going to be better later on!
Ive been hanging out with dan palmer and meghan and dan judd and michelle nelson and jason. They are fun. Ive never ever hung out with people my age or younger so its really cool. I like it. Its definatly different. Jason's house is the party house. He has the coolest fucking attic i have ever seen in my life. There was a fight up there last weekend. And one of the kids bleed everywhere. It was really nasty.
Last nite me and dan and meghan and judd and michelle went to 6 flags and it really sucked cause i was the 5th wheel. I wanted to leave so bad. But then meghan got really sick when we left and we had to take her to the hospital. But shes better now. My writing is like a 5 year old right now. But i have so much to say and i wanna get as much of it down as it comes to my head.
Boys once again are just pissing me off.
**i miss you and i love you always and forever**
Why do i do this to myself?
Ive been hanging out with dan palmer and meghan and dan judd and michelle nelson and jason. They are fun. Ive never ever hung out with people my age or younger so its really cool. I like it. Its definatly different. Jason's house is the party house. He has the coolest fucking attic i have ever seen in my life. There was a fight up there last weekend. And one of the kids bleed everywhere. It was really nasty.
Last nite me and dan and meghan and judd and michelle went to 6 flags and it really sucked cause i was the 5th wheel. I wanted to leave so bad. But then meghan got really sick when we left and we had to take her to the hospital. But shes better now. My writing is like a 5 year old right now. But i have so much to say and i wanna get as much of it down as it comes to my head.
Boys once again are just pissing me off.
**i miss you and i love you always and forever**
Why do i do this to myself?