Sleepless Night
GODDAMN. It's 3am and I have to be at work at 8am. I hate being an insomniac.
I fucking miss Caleb. We were supposed to be together still. He would be sleeping next to me and we would be getting up and getting ready for our jobs together but here I am at my parents house, tired, but can't sleep. I really fucking like Chris. He's so fucking nice but i'm really afraid he is only in love with the idea of me. I think if he got a hold of the entire package, he'd go fucking running. I'm also always attracted to people who are fucked up and who had fucked up lives. Maybe it makes for better story telling. FUCK. I don't know. I'm so confused. I thought I was over this Caleb bullshit but then, out of no where, the shit just creeps up on me and I get all sad all over again.
Ugh, i'm going to try and go lay back down.
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I fucking miss Caleb. We were supposed to be together still. He would be sleeping next to me and we would be getting up and getting ready for our jobs together but here I am at my parents house, tired, but can't sleep. I really fucking like Chris. He's so fucking nice but i'm really afraid he is only in love with the idea of me. I think if he got a hold of the entire package, he'd go fucking running. I'm also always attracted to people who are fucked up and who had fucked up lives. Maybe it makes for better story telling. FUCK. I don't know. I'm so confused. I thought I was over this Caleb bullshit but then, out of no where, the shit just creeps up on me and I get all sad all over again.
Ugh, i'm going to try and go lay back down.
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