up date
it's been so nice outside. both today and yesterday. i wish it could b like this weather everyday, maybe even a lil warmer. But yah.
I am tired. I had to work all morning and it sucked.
megahardcore. but atleast i have a couple hours again haha.
i am being pessimistic. I hate feeling like somethings bads gonna happen. it's like this ALL the time.
Some of my biggest fears include: losing friends. losing family. losing my boyfriend. and losing my dog...
my dog might have cancer. my parents are taking him to the vet today but if he were to die i wouldn't know what to do. he's been with me ever since i was in like kindergarden. and thinking about that makes him seem so old since i am gonna b a sophomore in college in the fall...
i hope it's nothing. but it's kinda hard to think a huge purple lump that is getting bigger growing off of your dogs ass is nothing...
i dunno.
whatever.
I prayed. that's all I can do.
But whenever I pray, it seems like things just get worse. But i still believe in miracles. and I still believe in God. I just don't know why things havta work the way they do.
If it is a tumor, my family can't afford to get it removed. and even if we could that's a dangerous surgery that's probably not even worth doing.
My parents really like scott. That makes me happy. My brother told me that my dad was saying how the only thing he doesnt like about scott is if we ever brokeup i'd never be happy. And he's right. cause i could never find someone as good as scott. someone who can handle me, lol.
IdK. I am just scared of something bad happening. I dunno what it involves but i just feel like something bad's gonna happen.
I think i am gonna get my hair done the day b4 easter but i really need to tan and i feel like i am gaining weight but thats prolly just a grl thing.
I really need to talk to someone about some random stupid things lol.
ahh
I am just gonna end it here
I am tired. I had to work all morning and it sucked.
megahardcore. but atleast i have a couple hours again haha.
i am being pessimistic. I hate feeling like somethings bads gonna happen. it's like this ALL the time.
Some of my biggest fears include: losing friends. losing family. losing my boyfriend. and losing my dog...
my dog might have cancer. my parents are taking him to the vet today but if he were to die i wouldn't know what to do. he's been with me ever since i was in like kindergarden. and thinking about that makes him seem so old since i am gonna b a sophomore in college in the fall...
i hope it's nothing. but it's kinda hard to think a huge purple lump that is getting bigger growing off of your dogs ass is nothing...
i dunno.
whatever.
I prayed. that's all I can do.
But whenever I pray, it seems like things just get worse. But i still believe in miracles. and I still believe in God. I just don't know why things havta work the way they do.
If it is a tumor, my family can't afford to get it removed. and even if we could that's a dangerous surgery that's probably not even worth doing.
My parents really like scott. That makes me happy. My brother told me that my dad was saying how the only thing he doesnt like about scott is if we ever brokeup i'd never be happy. And he's right. cause i could never find someone as good as scott. someone who can handle me, lol.
IdK. I am just scared of something bad happening. I dunno what it involves but i just feel like something bad's gonna happen.
I think i am gonna get my hair done the day b4 easter but i really need to tan and i feel like i am gaining weight but thats prolly just a grl thing.
I really need to talk to someone about some random stupid things lol.
ahh
I am just gonna end it here