how i forgot about you

[barbie_g]

i am going to loose this battle of life
hes gone and i have nothing left
yet i can pretend to smile
act like nothings wrong
hold it all inside when i want to break
im not going to try to bring him back
i can accept this fate,
live in denial,
and love yet another
risk my all to make it right
let the my new beu in to try and see
could it really be me?
just forget it all
let go of the pain, the hurt, the rage.
take it all inside.
let the sighs of temptation consume me
give in to the pleasure of a lie
wanting the nails of a cold love scrape down my back
feel my screams of anger turn to passion
i have lost my innocence
broken free into a fearful deed
meet the teeth with my flesh
only to be surprized by pleasure
let the pain flow through me
not through the tears,
through the nails, teeth, deap breaths, and fearfull feeling
letting his words engulf me
take me in, breath in my body
cold shudders of delight
soft moans of what is to come
this is what i have been led to
i lost you this is how i will forget you