what a life
I am sick of allways being number two why cant i just be nuumber one for once.. I shouldnt have to go through all of this. I am sick of this insecurity and i am sick of allways being put second.. when he has talked to me and just said baby your beautifull and then he puts his away message up and i go look to see it says I Love Her<33 (other girls name) its not fairt it should be my name up there! not hers! i have never treated him like shhe has. and i would never treat him like she does. He is more then just a peice of dirt on that floor to me.. Its not fair how just one girl ruins it for me. Why cant he see what right in front of his face? Who am i to him.. I am right here it seems like i am wearing a big orange sign that waves (GIRL WHO LOVES YOU PLS IGNORE ME) its not fair.. why cant he just open his eyes and see the thing that cares for him.. he cares about sum1 who would never care for him bak and he knows thins yet he chooses to push away te one he knows would love and cherish him for as long as he wanted... and why do i still insist on staying with him? Cuz being his other woman is better then being no woman to him at all.. and knowing that i am number two is knowing that i am better then a number three.. just to kno that i am somewhere in his life is fine with me even if it breaks me apart to no end. I will allways be his friend.