i get fucked over again and again but yet imma virgin....
I am sad. Verry sad, I cant keep doing this, people say oh you should let people nto your heart... well i do and each time i do i get fucked over! and its my fault for believing people! I hate that! and its my fault for wearing my heart on my sleeve. this is the second time in 2 days litteraly with 2 diff guys! and how the hell am i supposed to not fall for their shit if i am supposed to let peoplle into my heart?!?!?!? the first one says oh i love you karina you are so amazing my baby gurl! i have a pic of you on my ipod and everytime i look at it it gives me a funny feeling in my tummy like not bad funny but good. I kno i love you and soon i am getting my apartment and you can come and stay with me.... and then wat happnes huh? NOTHING! he tells me all this and the next day
*i feel like cpar.
-why?
*well nvm
-tell me
*i cant
-why?
*youll get upset with me
-just tell me i am getting upset now!
*oks fine well i did a bad thing
-like?
*i miss sum 1
-o? i c.
*mhm and i broke up with her in june and i dont know what to do. I really love her Karina
-o ok. im not upset with you.....
and i logged off and in my head i was thinking *just cus im not upset with you dont mean im not upset!* and i was i really was! i got offline and cried and cried and cried till i couldnt cry no more.... and thats what happens every time and this guy now... well its a whole nother story with him... i got up the guts to ask him if he liked me and he was like yeah i like you im really into like allot but like you moved there and i am still here and i cant wait till you come bak up next weekend... and then liek his away message was sumthing i cant mamber but the end was I Love Her <33 and i was like yup thats not for me... and then he im's me and is like hey baby! and i was thinkin oks maybe it was but idk. and then like after that his away message was Calling Brooke =] and i was like yup i knew it but w/e... thats fine... i will just let it go and then he came bak in a sad mood and when i asked i was in a bad mood to cus i had liked this guy for like months... and like he lived really kinda close to me and stuff and then he was all bitchy and shit with me and we argued and then yeah icky! and then like the last thing he said was fuck! i need to get fucked up and forget about all this shit and then he gets off and shit and i was so fuckin pissed! cus it was sorta my fault and shit and then today we were in an oks mood till he was like yeah idk i guess and i was like guess wat? and he was like nvm.. and i was like no tell me... cus hes allways doin that to me when i dont wanna explain shit to him and he was like nvm... just shit.. and i was like tell me..... and he trpped and was like it doesnt fucking matter just drop it and i was like ok chill it the fuck out boo! and then like yeah that was it and now hes all pissy and shit and i feel bad and it was like all my fault! cus f i haddnt like said n/e thing it would all b fine.. but w/e... i allways seem to fuck things up...
*i feel like cpar.
-why?
*well nvm
-tell me
*i cant
-why?
*youll get upset with me
-just tell me i am getting upset now!
*oks fine well i did a bad thing
-like?
*i miss sum 1
-o? i c.
*mhm and i broke up with her in june and i dont know what to do. I really love her Karina
-o ok. im not upset with you.....
and i logged off and in my head i was thinking *just cus im not upset with you dont mean im not upset!* and i was i really was! i got offline and cried and cried and cried till i couldnt cry no more.... and thats what happens every time and this guy now... well its a whole nother story with him... i got up the guts to ask him if he liked me and he was like yeah i like you im really into like allot but like you moved there and i am still here and i cant wait till you come bak up next weekend... and then liek his away message was sumthing i cant mamber but the end was I Love Her <33 and i was like yup thats not for me... and then he im's me and is like hey baby! and i was thinkin oks maybe it was but idk. and then like after that his away message was Calling Brooke =] and i was like yup i knew it but w/e... thats fine... i will just let it go and then he came bak in a sad mood and when i asked i was in a bad mood to cus i had liked this guy for like months... and like he lived really kinda close to me and stuff and then he was all bitchy and shit with me and we argued and then yeah icky! and then like the last thing he said was fuck! i need to get fucked up and forget about all this shit and then he gets off and shit and i was so fuckin pissed! cus it was sorta my fault and shit and then today we were in an oks mood till he was like yeah idk i guess and i was like guess wat? and he was like nvm.. and i was like no tell me... cus hes allways doin that to me when i dont wanna explain shit to him and he was like nvm... just shit.. and i was like tell me..... and he trpped and was like it doesnt fucking matter just drop it and i was like ok chill it the fuck out boo! and then like yeah that was it and now hes all pissy and shit and i feel bad and it was like all my fault! cus f i haddnt like said n/e thing it would all b fine.. but w/e... i allways seem to fuck things up...