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eh..... do i ever have any luck with guys? Oh yea that is right i dont! I thought i found the perfect guy in the whole world, until some how i messed it up! I always manged to, nothin new there! I just wish people would learn to trust and believe me! I just wish there is something i could do for him to believe me! Anything... no i dont like his best friend either, and i would never do that too him, to anyone! So is asking a guy to my volleyball game too much? Maybe it is i dont know.. ive been hurt and single so many times i just dont know what or how to act any more! And this just adds on to my list! I dont know why i do this to myself but i do, and i mange to get myself in this situtaitions that suck, and i want to be able to do something about them but i cant. He can only make that decision. There is nothin i can do or say to help that. I just dont know how to act around him! It is so confusing, everyone says "dont go and talk to him" but as much as i want to just go throw my arms around him and say sorry for everything i did wrong I cant! and you know what.... IT SUCKS! So... i thought i would just get this off my mind!
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do