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i got my psych teacher to sign my drop form. im going to head up to cfcc early today to drop the form off with a counselor. *sigh*
oh, and richard broke up with me last night.
to make a really long story short, he doesn't "see a future" with us.
but he wants me to continue living here and sharing a room with him, and he still loves me.
i don't know. all i know is that i didn't expect this.
i knew i shouldn't have gotten my hopes up about him. but he was so perfect.
well i guess he and i are just friends now.
to be completely honest, i think him breaking up with me is because he thinks our relationship is based on sex, or he's scared of what he and i could be.... or he plans on being with elayna.
no matter what, this whole thing has just been making me cry for the past several days.
i can't get him out of my head.
*sigh* i'll be okay.
but it's just so funny how im never good enough to be the girlfriend, but im good enough to be the friend. hell my only long term relationship was Christian! nothing else has ever exceeded 3 months.
but apparently im not supposed to have someone who loves me like that. apparently im supposed to be a fuck buddy and thats all im supposed to be.
oh, and richard broke up with me last night.
to make a really long story short, he doesn't "see a future" with us.
but he wants me to continue living here and sharing a room with him, and he still loves me.
i don't know. all i know is that i didn't expect this.
i knew i shouldn't have gotten my hopes up about him. but he was so perfect.
well i guess he and i are just friends now.
to be completely honest, i think him breaking up with me is because he thinks our relationship is based on sex, or he's scared of what he and i could be.... or he plans on being with elayna.
no matter what, this whole thing has just been making me cry for the past several days.
i can't get him out of my head.
*sigh* i'll be okay.
but it's just so funny how im never good enough to be the girlfriend, but im good enough to be the friend. hell my only long term relationship was Christian! nothing else has ever exceeded 3 months.
but apparently im not supposed to have someone who loves me like that. apparently im supposed to be a fuck buddy and thats all im supposed to be.