Aha Shake Heartbreak
I've finished uni now and i'm already bored. I spent three days last week just sitting at home, sorta half studying for my exam that happened yesterday on friday, sorta moping and doing other meaningless things. i have this inability to keep myself occupied when i'm at home, i just end up getting bored. i feel like something else beckons but i don't know what so i can't go to it.
so i was pretty much just chilling out by myself last week and that made me want to see Damien even more on Friday because i had minimal to no contact with him for the whole week. and he was just so distant to me, even though i surprised him with a trip to the go-carts, where we both had a good time. later today i pushed it out of him - he was distant to me, he admits, as he thinks he's getting sick of me a little bit and needs contact with other people, too much time around me. fuck, just to think that that time we were sorta a part i was carving him more and more as each day went by and he was probably getting more and more content with the space he had. i guess it's no reason to worry, as he reassured me it's not like he's stopped caring for me or anythign, he just needs a bit more time a part from me. but still, it makes me think that everything will slowly begin to disintegrate. i don't want it to.
so i was pretty much just chilling out by myself last week and that made me want to see Damien even more on Friday because i had minimal to no contact with him for the whole week. and he was just so distant to me, even though i surprised him with a trip to the go-carts, where we both had a good time. later today i pushed it out of him - he was distant to me, he admits, as he thinks he's getting sick of me a little bit and needs contact with other people, too much time around me. fuck, just to think that that time we were sorta a part i was carving him more and more as each day went by and he was probably getting more and more content with the space he had. i guess it's no reason to worry, as he reassured me it's not like he's stopped caring for me or anythign, he just needs a bit more time a part from me. but still, it makes me think that everything will slowly begin to disintegrate. i don't want it to.