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1. almost everyone who matters knows that i'm not coming back to school in the fall. i'm telling my parents (well, my mom) on saturday and sheena...i don't know when. maybe tomorrow. we'll see. but i have finally told all of my friends and argo and circle k.
1a. i was genuinely surprised at (a) how well everyone took it and (b) the fact that nobody really knew how completely unhappy i've been. the only person who gave me any attitude about leaving was hita, and she was drunk at the time, and it was because i was giving her attitude about something else. and it was ben's fault anyway, heh. but everyone's been really great and supportive.
1b. my friends are starting to get all "i can't believe you're leaving, who's going to make fun of me next year?" and i almost cry every single time someone says something like that. :/
1c. thankfully, my friends have also informed me that if i even *think* about going back to stop & shop, they will tell my mom that i'm hanging out with cokeheads. this is very good, because i know how easily i give in to peer pressure, summer whims, and the path of least resistance, and i definitely do not need to go back there and start smoking again, go out drinking with the produce boys all the time, or go back to spending all of my time with people who are perpetually on drugs.
2. now that i have a week left here, i'm starting to get kind of sad about leaving. i love being here, i do. i love the campus and the community and my job (oh god, my job) and my friends and i wish this was a town so i could move here forever. i'm going to miss my office and my desk and upper g and the lake and just. everything.
2a. handing in my argo key is going to be so painful. i know i bitch about the paper a lot, but it was *mine*. i can be a totally anal-retentive control freak and perfectionist, so i drove the staff (and me) crazy because if the paper wasn't perfect then it was clearly horrible. but i've done so much with the paper and i had so much more i wanted to do and now it's in somebody else's hands. and i'm very scared that i'll never find another newspaper that will hand me the rough layout and let me do my thing.
2b. you know how in office space, peter's like "my guidance counselor used to ask what we would do if we had a million dollars and didn't have to work, and i never had an answer"? yeah, i would lay out newspapers for the rest of my life, as dorky as that is.
3. i'm on wellbutrin, and it makes me nauseous every day. i am going to talk to the doctor about it on wednesday, but i'm going to keep taking it in the meantime because, hopefully, my stomach will adjust and stop being such a baby. (plus i'm stressed out, and my stomach doesn't react well to stress.)
4. for the first time i've ever noticed, porn is not the most searched for term on our school's hub. i guess everyone really wants the new taking back sunday cd...
5. note to self: icon "quotes" file when you find some free time.
heh, i love lj's spellcheck! how does it recognize "fuckheads" but not "everyone's"??
hita: hi ta, hi-ta, hiya, Dita, Lita, Nita, Rita, Vita, Zita, pita, vita
everyone's: Efren's, Efrain's, Aryan's, overruns, Aryans, Ivorians
cokeheads: coke heads, coke-heads, copperheads, cowherds, dickheads, crackheads, fuckheads, loggerheads, Godhead's, Lockheed's, jehad's, eggheads, loggerhead's, Cocteau's
wellbutrin: weltering, libertarian, volunteering
1a. i was genuinely surprised at (a) how well everyone took it and (b) the fact that nobody really knew how completely unhappy i've been. the only person who gave me any attitude about leaving was hita, and she was drunk at the time, and it was because i was giving her attitude about something else. and it was ben's fault anyway, heh. but everyone's been really great and supportive.
1b. my friends are starting to get all "i can't believe you're leaving, who's going to make fun of me next year?" and i almost cry every single time someone says something like that. :/
1c. thankfully, my friends have also informed me that if i even *think* about going back to stop & shop, they will tell my mom that i'm hanging out with cokeheads. this is very good, because i know how easily i give in to peer pressure, summer whims, and the path of least resistance, and i definitely do not need to go back there and start smoking again, go out drinking with the produce boys all the time, or go back to spending all of my time with people who are perpetually on drugs.
2. now that i have a week left here, i'm starting to get kind of sad about leaving. i love being here, i do. i love the campus and the community and my job (oh god, my job) and my friends and i wish this was a town so i could move here forever. i'm going to miss my office and my desk and upper g and the lake and just. everything.
2a. handing in my argo key is going to be so painful. i know i bitch about the paper a lot, but it was *mine*. i can be a totally anal-retentive control freak and perfectionist, so i drove the staff (and me) crazy because if the paper wasn't perfect then it was clearly horrible. but i've done so much with the paper and i had so much more i wanted to do and now it's in somebody else's hands. and i'm very scared that i'll never find another newspaper that will hand me the rough layout and let me do my thing.
2b. you know how in office space, peter's like "my guidance counselor used to ask what we would do if we had a million dollars and didn't have to work, and i never had an answer"? yeah, i would lay out newspapers for the rest of my life, as dorky as that is.
3. i'm on wellbutrin, and it makes me nauseous every day. i am going to talk to the doctor about it on wednesday, but i'm going to keep taking it in the meantime because, hopefully, my stomach will adjust and stop being such a baby. (plus i'm stressed out, and my stomach doesn't react well to stress.)
4. for the first time i've ever noticed, porn is not the most searched for term on our school's hub. i guess everyone really wants the new taking back sunday cd...
5. note to self: icon "quotes" file when you find some free time.
heh, i love lj's spellcheck! how does it recognize "fuckheads" but not "everyone's"??
hita: hi ta, hi-ta, hiya, Dita, Lita, Nita, Rita, Vita, Zita, pita, vita
everyone's: Efren's, Efrain's, Aryan's, overruns, Aryans, Ivorians
cokeheads: coke heads, coke-heads, copperheads, cowherds, dickheads, crackheads, fuckheads, loggerheads, Godhead's, Lockheed's, jehad's, eggheads, loggerhead's, Cocteau's
wellbutrin: weltering, libertarian, volunteering